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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello,
i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Thank you @Former-Member.
I was feeling really frightened of my thoughts earlier today.
Thank you to everyone who talked to me today, I needed someone and you all came to talk to me.. your words are soothing and helpful.
I hate nights because trying to sleep is hard and when I wake up it means another tomorrow of fighting my thoughts,
I will leave you now, I hope tomorrow is peaceful for you all.🦋
🦋
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
I get that with the housework but for a different reason @Tigga321 ..... my hubby threw our home and the housekeeping into complete chaos repeatedly, and after so many disruptions, all systems and the family’s willingness to be involved and take responsibility has gone to pieces. We have been battling mi issues that are still only part-diagnosed, and I just don’t have the strength to keep rebuilding this sandcastle ..... it wasn’t spiteful like your situation was, but the same result in terms of the house itself.
Now I just walk through the house tidying as I go, and what gets done gets done ..... I can’t afford to care too much about it because with the next tide it’s just going to wash away again.
Anyway, if you want to tweak the way you keep house a little bit so you’re doing things a different way, let me know, cos I have collected a lot of tips.
Goodnight @Tigga321 ..... good to be talking to you .... 🌷
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope.
I am sorry about the problems you have with your hubby and housework, I had no choice but I did / do like a clean home. I'm ashamed of mine, it's so untidy, I really do want to clean it up, but I'm afraid that I will do something that reminds of what happened, even sitting on the lounge looking at the dust etc then thinking about getting up to do it, is enough to drop my tears. I am so scared that this will be the life I will have to live from now on. , it's really very daunting to think it might be,
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope
Yes I am willing to try anything.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope.
Thank you, you are so kind...I forgot what kindness was..
I better go tears are starting up again. Gosh I hate these tears.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Sick of them. Now another night I won't sleep. But I try not to. To many times I wake up shaking, heart going so fast and I'm sweating, but I don't remember the dream if I had one
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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