TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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Quadruple rant.
I'm so damn useless. Had a nap when I was meant to make dinner cause I was just too tired, tried to go to bed after waking from the nap, ended up stuffing my cake-hole with all manner of foods and not being able to sleep.
I'm exhausted all the time, my brain spits cruel, spiteful, hateful poison and wants me to self destruct, and it feels like no one would care if I did, so long as I left a Vorticon-shaped shell to pretend there's still a person there.
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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I would care @TheVorticon. I don't want you to be just a shell of yourself. You need to be 100% authentic.
Thinking of you during your hard night.
Thinking of you during your hard night.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Me too @TheVorticon ...... hearing you .... but you matter ....
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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Thanks @utopia and @Faith-and-Hope.
I was avoiding this thread in a hope to keep the problem out of mind but I appreciated your posts at the time.
I can't seem to get to sleep that easily tonight. It seems like every time I open my mouth in-person I say something stupid. I'd be better off not saying anything, but then when I'm put on the spot I say stupid stuff too. So now I can't stop thinking about the stupid stuff I said today. Maybe I can avoid saying anything tomorrow and somehow make up for it.
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Did the stuff you said hurt anyone? Did it break anything? @TheVorticon.
Maybe your words weren't taken as badly by others, as you are.
Maybe your words weren't taken as badly by others, as you are.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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I agree @TheVorticon ...., if you think of things being on a spectrum rather than good or bad, right or wrong, it might help.
That means you could have said them in a way that you were more comfortable with, but that doesn’t make what you did say the worst ..... and it might help you to get it closer to what you are happy with next time ..... or the time after that ....,. or the time after that.
Self-assessing can be positive, just try not to be too self-critical .... think about balance.
That means you could have said them in a way that you were more comfortable with, but that doesn’t make what you did say the worst ..... and it might help you to get it closer to what you are happy with next time ..... or the time after that ....,. or the time after that.
Self-assessing can be positive, just try not to be too self-critical .... think about balance.
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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Well no it didn't hurt anyone, although it was loud and sweary bit that's the atmosphere in the office anyway so it wasn't out of place.
It's more that I've been so talkative for no reason and I'm annoyed by myself. I can't imagine how much I'm annoying anyone else. I just need to shut the hell up. I never used to talk this much and I only pick it up when it's too late to stop. I need a shock collar that goes off when I open my mouth.
It's more that I've been so talkative for no reason and I'm annoyed by myself. I can't imagine how much I'm annoying anyone else. I just need to shut the hell up. I never used to talk this much and I only pick it up when it's too late to stop. I need a shock collar that goes off when I open my mouth.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Awwww @TheVorticon ...... pls be more gentle with yourself .....
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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I don't feel like I can deal with tonight. I can't get a particular thought out of my head. It's not healthy but it's not like anyone would know. I feel so alone that it feels like the only way to not be alone.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Hearing you @TheVorticon ..... but I’m falling asleep dozing.
Please call a helpline if you need to, you are not alone.
I have enjoyed seeing you pop up on different threads.
