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No, we are apart. --- ohh so sorry to hear that @DownMoreThanUp and sitting with you my awesome friend

Oh @DownMoreThanUp ,

I'm so sorry to hear about what happened. You and your beautiful wife will be in my thoughts and prayers. I know she is your main support. I hope your counsellor will help in the way you're confident he will. Please make sure you use our support also.

May God hold you both and guide you both to healing.

You are both amazing.

@Realness i have to loose my life to gain it.................................IT IS A SPIRITUAL THING.

@Shaz51 @AlwaysMyself @heartathome @ENKELI

For when i was at my worst after my wife triggered me, seeking to end my life, our merciful Heavenly Father showed me the mirror of myself ready to do the deed. (said goodbye to all)

And i died the shame and guilt in evil - seeing myself as my wife and kids had seen me - but i never myself - for in my mind at the time i had been calling them to come with me - not knowing anything about those evil ones at the time. God's pool of fire was my difference from those evil spirits in me, let me assure you, died my hell right there and then..........been fine since need never fear again i harm life.

i need SLEEP.

When in years past told a councilor, in confidence, what i all heard in my head, and can became in my evil alter but have fought silently, and was now medicating away as i did, he cut me off. Hr denied me being someone who can hear voices or has fear. In his eyes i'm a sick person who plays mind games with people and had the medical world turn against me ever since. Sad but true.

However sleeping tablets are NOT working. i meditate as much as i can. My elder is going to set up a support team from Church. At least Jesus got some stuff working for good. They all try to look after my wife, hating me doing this to her, but hopefully that will begin to change soon./ For she will defend me. She loves me to bits. She is a wonderful woman. i know Jesus will fix things. i have hope!

Don't we all @DownMoreThanUp ? Hearing you.

I'm so sorry to hear about what you've been going through @DownMoreThanUp

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~ @Honeymoon

@DownMoreThanUp ,

Can I please ask you a question? Maybe more than one?

Was you wife okay with how much time you spent on the Forum?

Can you feel Jesus anywhere near you at the moment?

I struggle with understanding losing one's life to gain it. As you make the necessary changes please make sure you have enough support.

Hope is what will keep you going @DownMoreThanUp

Hi @DownMoreThanUp ,

Just letting you know I responded before reading your whole post. I only saw the losing to gain comment. Then when I went back it was a longer post. Reading the rest of it now.

Hahaha @Realness .

Me too.. I saw the post about dying to gain.. then I responded before seeing the edited post of @DownMoreThanUp 🙂

Glad to see you @DownMoreThanUp

@DownMoreThanUp ,

The beauty of the crossed posts is that you have already answered most of my questions and concerns!

I like it when that happens.

Yes, Jesus will be able to resolve this situation.