@tyme Thank you for caring and for your support. i have thanked Jesus many times over the last 32 years him staying in contact. i knew he was hurting badly. i also knew there is a beautiful authentic person underneath the rage hiding away. i saw him hurting his hell, already all these years back. We both did. He has grown a bit like a 'gone wrong son' to me.
It was trying to befriend him in the alter where he keeps pushing people all these years back. It has been almost 28 year long mission of standing by him, for him to finally begin to trust me enough to open up about his life.
After i began sharing some of my story with him really. Also i have been explaining (his) 'bad' alter to him. And also shared with him, already a long time ago, that i was a victim of sexual abuse and a near murder, i never provided any further detail of how this has been for me tho.
This is how we have grown closer and closer over the years. The trouble is that in the 'bad' alter he lies like a trooper. Which at first made it difficult to know for us when he spoke true and when not. However that is only if you do not know him well, for now we know he is not very good at not telling contradictory stories and he always adds more lies to his previous lies when he has lied, (for he fears we figure out he lied. ) He also acts the wrong body language while lying, or demonstrates obnoxious behaviours when his 'nice' behaviours/lies did not work for him.
Although he does not do that to me/us any more very often now, but tells me usually the truth, or at least half the truth.
He knows i know him in his wrong alter and that we love him to be different and BELIEVE HE CAN BE DIFFERENT - and he knows we know he does as well. That's why we been talking all these years. He wants to be loved. (i always did as well hurting my hell underneath it all. Such are very lonely places.😭)
Thanks praying for this (broken) man. Jesus training me to understand Leviticus spiritually has been really useful the last week, specially after yesterday.
Our priestly task is to pray for the wellbeing God brings on our path.