what a horrible day

@MDT - morning. I'm sorry you feel that way. But @outlander has a point. Just do at least one thing that makes you feel ok. Then at least you can say it wasn't all bad. Yesterday afternoon I took my cat outside on the harness & leash, and cut back some shrubs in the front garden as well as a general tidy up. Not entirely exciting but I got out of the house for a while and it felt good with the breeze.

@MDT you have a university degree. That is definently something. Though i understand and am hearing you. It is hard sometimes.
Ok so dont work overseas. Find a job over here and work towards that
Try and have a good day.

yeah... idk... im just so lost @outlander and @Sans911

i dunno where to get help or if i want it..

How about starting with your gp @MDT ? Then work out MHCP
Being lost aftet uni/yr12 is really common. All of a sudden what you've been doing all this time is no longer your routine

yeh my MHCP is all done for the year becayse i had 10 sessions so its full price now.. has been aince about june.. its not cheap..
im at my sisters graduation now so that might help idk

You could be eligable after xmas @MDT take a look at the mhcp thread that Zoe7 syarted. Theres heaps of info and options on there that you could be interested in.
Have fun at the graduation.

thanks @outlander

im struggling so hard today 🙁🙁🙁🙁

Here for you @MDT 💚💚

feel like im about to break down <br>@outlander<br><br>im happy for my sister but im just falling to bits on the inside.... WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE

ahhhhh !
@outlander @Sans911 @soul @Faith-and-Hope

i always talk about how i struggle to accept the situation.. i think i accept it but i still hate it...

i really dont wanna do anything at all.... i dont care anymore... i cant face people and the world because its a reminder of everyone else doing better... and i try to tell people but they tell me its okay or something...

im just the pity case amongst everyone... i cant face people.. i just wanna disappear..

im happy for my sister but i cant handle the world today... no one cares... but my family do which is good.

im done..

i cant be bothered ringing lifeline because they are anonymous.. i cant ring my psych because they dont do phonecalls.. no one will treat my condition seriously because i an white or something.. because im tall.. because i dress alright... therapists are shallow.. except the two ones i have..

i have nothing to live for... wveryday is the same and i cant handle it...

im sick of talking on this forum and SANE forums because i feel like im kidding myself..

people just think im weak and they are probably right.. i always have been... i dont wanna go to hospital because they will just turn me back.. i belong nowhere..

waste of a human..

im really done... i dont care.. i dont wanna die.. but i dont wanna live either.. and IM OVER PEOPLE... WHY IS EVERYONE SHALLOW AND FAKE... i cant take faking everything in my life because all of it is fake.. im not okay and no one takes it seriously...

im on the verge of tears but im out in public and i cant do that.. even if i tried..

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