I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

@outlanderI'm sorry this is upsetting you so much. I can hear you feel that your mum isn't listening to what you want or your needs. That must put you in a difficult decision hun.

half the reason the people avoided me there was becasue of my mother @Former-Member @Sans911 this is how half this shit started and she doesnt know it. my now ex friends blocked nd deleted her becasue they dont like her. i got in so much trouble for speaking to them about a situation i was in but i didnt have to say anything becasue people just know.

i dont know what to do. 5am is too close. why couldnt she shut her mouth for 20 minutes then the paddocks wouldve been taken. it has now put me in the situation where i now have to work knowing peoples thoughts, and then they start to feel sorry for me and then they avoid me and then they give unwarrented advice on everything.

its not right. i knew this was going to happen. id been lying to my mother that there was no room at this property for months- i dont lie but i am extremely desaparte. im hoping she take smy advice and listens to me and goes up the back right up the back away from everyone then it would make things easier for me.

i have to go back i work there and my boss doesnt know what was happening and i need the extra cash right now and i dont want to quit adnd the damn horse is one of mine. i wish we wouldve sold up and then i wouldnt have to deal with this

i cant deal with it, its not fair.

i hate this. i now have to go and pretend everythings ok, interact with people that know abit of my circumstance and i cant

@Former-Member

and i need th pain relief becasue now this has aggrivated everything but i dont want to slepe and thats what its going to make me do

im going to go calm down @Former-Member@Former-Member@Sans911

this is stupid. all this over a stupid fking horse. suppose to be good for your emotional wellbeing. hmmm

@outlanderif people know what she is like then hopefully they will give her a wide berth. As I said before this sounds totally out of your hands which I am sorry about.

If you need the pain meds than take them hun.

complete avoidance is what i need @Former-Member and yes its out of my hands im going to do my best to persude her to take the back paddock for 'easier feeding' whn in fact its becasue its going to save me mh just abit more than having a paddock right next to the person who im having trouble with and who both my mother and her have a problem with each other