I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Ive taken pain relief @Former-Member @Former-Member @Sans911
It doesnt solve my problems but itll help my pain
My chest is really bad abd its to the point its mimicking period pain

@outlander - don't let these people get to you. You're intelligent and hard working. Who gives a flying fk what they think. If they start to give you advice, just be kind, smile nicely and tell them you have work to do.

Its so complicated @Sans911 theres more sort of that i cant share but ive told 99% of it.
The only last hope i have and thats if i can persuade my mother to take the back paddock basically away from everyone. That would help me alot. Even if she was there just being out of the way.
Is it wrong that i hate my mother and people now. Not u guys but honestly i think being a loner is now better. If i had of shut my mouth then things might not have happened the way they did. I was trying so hard to keep the peace and now its come down to this 😞

@outlander
I believe you have colic as you are breathing too much through your mouth. Please go take 1 teaspoon of bicarbonate soda in a glass of water to get rid of that wind in your stomach please?

I dont have bicarb soda... @Former-Member

@outlander
Colic will need to be dealt with can you drink something for stomach troubles please or soda water something to get rid of that painful wind stuck in your stomach??

I have nothing but water @Former-Member

@outlander - you're so like me. I often try to keep the peace, and things end up complicated and messy and upsetting. We often say things we wish we could take back but can't. All you can do if find a way forward that's manageable for you. And no, it's no wrong to hate your mother. Although I'm sad for you that don't have someone that gave birth to you that would love, nurture and protect you. I understand the way you feel about your mother. Right now, do everything you can to take care of yourself. Protect yourself and don't always believe what others are saying. Sometimes people are so insecure in their own they need to make others feel bad.

Thats exactly it. I tried so hard to keep the peace. I shouldve just shut my mouth. Kept my head down.
I know i dont want to hate my mother. I hate what shes done to me.
Its stressing me out to the max. I need to persuade her to take the back paddock. That is my mission tomorrow. Pain or no pain im meeting her ar 5am to look at them. Thats the only way i can see this working and being able to stay safe within myself. @Sans911