I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Hi @outlander @Bunniekins @Sans911 just trying to catch up

this isnt going to end well

fk fk fk

@outlandercan I help at all hun?

@Bunniekinsi know 😞 im not a violent perosn at all and i cant believe i said those outloud. ive had thoughts but never said them outloud

@Former-Memberi ma panicing and so upset 😞 the old paddock i use to be at that i work at now, we are moving back there. should be good right.? noooooooooooooooooooooooo everyone doesnt really like my mother and i saved everything becasue i made us move from there. i was a complete mess even more than what i am now when we were there. this is all going wrong wrong wrong!!!!!!

now i have to put up with my sisters at my work place and people talking more and i cant handle it Nell

i cant cant cant

@outlanderfirstly calm down hun and take some deep breaths.

Do you mean moving the horses?

this si bad very very bad so bad!!!! @Former-Member so veyr bad bad

bad bad bad bad

not good no way not at all

fk

@outlanderare you safe atm or do you need more help than just talking here?

im safe @Former-Member i havent been able to cry for 3 days even in that pain and i have tears

this isnt suppose to happen

i hate this so much. this might even result in me quitting my job and being there on the bare minimum

@outlanderby the sound of it you had no choice in this matter, it was your mums decision. Is that right?

You need to do what is best for you at this stage. How is that deep breathing going?

no i even told my boss i was avoiding coming back and now she went and advertised on fb and my mums on that site and contacted her and then ive been talking to my boss and i wish she hadnt of seen it cause other people are wanting it. if only she had waiting 20 minutes they wouldve been taken 😞

my mothers coming to look at them tomorrow morning at 5am 😞 and we will either be moving the horse in early january or next week 😞

@Former-Memberits not fair, now i have got be put through all that shit again. constant knowing that people are talking and people feeling sorry and arguments and i jsut cant handle it

it doesnt matter what i want, my mothers already set on it. i even tried to talk her out of it and said the yards are small and the riding arenas crap and it still hasnt worked. 😞