I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

its hard trying to care for yourself when struggling let alone others @Former-Member it comes wiht the job however try and self care as much as possible and where possible. if you dont get the lights up and out then thats fine. it isnt a priority.

you deserve happiness @Former-Member you can still have relationships and be a carer. and i know you dont like caring for your mother. it sounds very difficult indeed. she reminds me of my mother but its job and providing an income and keeping you out of trouble with job search. you can study while on it too if thats what youd like to do.

this years not over yet unfortunalty. i cant wait for it to be over and hoping next yr is alot better not jsut for me but for everyone!

@outlander, I came over here to leave a message as Bella is a bit low tonight

I hope you are not getting another kidney infection , did you finish the whole course of AB`s last time

you might have to do a urine test and get on some AB`s

my ab`s don`t work anymore so the doctor has to give me stronger ones but can`t take them too often

Hugs @outlander

good idea @Shaz51

i did finish the entire 3 courses i was put onto. the pain went away for a little bit but it came back intermittedly and i thought it mightve still been healing but the pain is coming back to the original pain and sites i had it before. they didnt do ultrasouns or anything. they done one urine sample and then kep putting my on abs

no not really @MDT

it sounds so stupid but even after my mentor broke my heart. i really miss them a great deal and its adding to the rest of the shite

yes @MDT the same one. i thought i was over it until today. i guess im not

nearly everyday before they became my mentor but they didnt want to be in the first place. it was all a lie. the whole thing was a lie @MDT i should hate them but i dont. i miss them and thats the hardest part because i still see them around and everytime i do it rebreaks my heart like it done late this arvo. ive tried to ignore it but i guess like anything if it wants to be known it will be.