outlanderSenior Contributor
I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
I dont know how much longer i can keep going on like this anymore. I feel completely defeated right about now
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I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
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Unknown userMember
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@outlander,all my life with my family,the situation I am in with my mother,I felt like I have lived on a volcano, you never know when its going to blow.December and Xmas is a shit time when we suffer depression, and I think everything that has happened during the year we reflect on more.
Give yourself some credit,you have overcame some big problems this year. I wonder if you are feeling mixed feelings in regard to your mother moving out?
And the loneliness I understand you know that,it makes you put up barriers that once are up,they are concrete. I think it would be good if you consider what you can do study wise next year, whether you could do Art course etc somewhere?
From experience all you can do is ride out the depression @outlander,put safety plans in place which you have shown you are capable of and take one day,at a time.
Give yourself some credit,you have overcame some big problems this year. I wonder if you are feeling mixed feelings in regard to your mother moving out?
And the loneliness I understand you know that,it makes you put up barriers that once are up,they are concrete. I think it would be good if you consider what you can do study wise next year, whether you could do Art course etc somewhere?
From experience all you can do is ride out the depression @outlander,put safety plans in place which you have shown you are capable of and take one day,at a time.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
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Sure is damn hard ..... so glad we don't have to do damn hard alone. @outlander, very true @Faith-and-Hope
so one step at a time @outlander
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Yes @Faith-and-Hope that is true 💜
@Former-Member i am in no way regretting my mother move out. Thats the best thing to happen yet
Yeah i guess so. I can have a look at study again. I dont really want to do that either really.
Yes safety plans. They are just everyday things. Not really safe stuff i suppose.. thanks for your help ❤
@Former-Member i am in no way regretting my mother move out. Thats the best thing to happen yet
Yeah i guess so. I can have a look at study again. I dont really want to do that either really.
Yes safety plans. They are just everyday things. Not really safe stuff i suppose.. thanks for your help ❤
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Unknown userMember
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Not much help @outlander,In re:to mother, I know you are glad but can leave mixed feelings all the same.my mother wanted me to go somewhere today,I cleaned the kitchen and laying down from anaemia.Plus I don't want to see anyone, know I am too tired and don't need the triggers. Understand.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Hmm maybe idont really know @Former-Member i just dont get how i cant just be happy. I have my basic needs being met. I wish it were thst simple 😞
Please look after yourself ❤
Please look after yourself ❤
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Joy is different from happiness @outlander ..... if you're not happy, and I am not happy, at least seek out moments of joy ..... things that lift your heart a little ..... like Li1's brumbies in the snow ...,
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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So like my art and music? @Faith-and-Hope
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Absolutely @outlander.
Think of them like floaties ....
Think of them like floaties ....
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Okay @Faith-and-Hope i will try my best ❤🐟🐠🐟
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I can't remember when I was happy @Faith-and-Hope, @outlander,I said today I was going to get my Xmas animated dolls out,one is a 370 dollar santa and reindeer that I have had for many years from Myers that moves and lantern lights up,but I am finding it hard to get in the mood, usually have them out last week.I have barely had money to buy a coffee,and at the moment whatever I spend goes on my credit cards.It was humilating at Centrelink the other day.For a few moments when I walked back to my car, I thought about a act of SC there and then..My mother hasn't been well past few days,also been difficult, and already playing on me more.I fell out with a niece I was close to this year,and don't have great affection towards her after the second incident of disrespect.Her sister is getting married in February,which I'm not invited.I wouldn't go due to family disharmony,but my mother and I raised them for a few years because my sister basically didn't want to be a mother,and used us.
I feel awful hopelessness too @outlander,so far down,live next door to one I used to work with,when they are there I avoid going to the garden or crouch down do I'm not seen...must look like a idiot.lol.Im keeping going,but it is hard.I have no control over my life and that scares the crap out of me,plus I've gave up on meeting someone because my mother will be my problem until there is nothing left of me.
You've have had a very vulnerable time this year @outlander,I suggest you try to enjoy the time over Xmas with your Pop.Thats all you can do.
