I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Hugs @outlander .....

Chat now if you want to ...... I'm resting on Chair Island .....

Its just the way im feeling. Its everything all coming back again and its sending my depression through the floor to the point i dont react with anxiety it just makes me feel lower. Its well everything. Friends-lack of
Work troubles
Bullies
Xmas being a hard time
Pops tests coming up- ive tried to leave it in the worry box but it is a contributer.
I have no joy for anything anymore. I drew the other day and even that feels so...lacking? Not as enjoyable?
I guess its everything combined. Ive tried to change the situation the best i can and i thought mum moving out and me being with pop would help but it hasnt really changed how i feel.
All i want to do is be at home but home is loneley but when i go out i dont enjoy it and just want to leave. I feel like im barely keeping my head from going under.
@Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51

Keep working on the little stuff @outlander, changing things in increments. It helps to balance out the list of things that are not going well, with things that are, and tings to be grateful for ..... it helps with the recovery mindset.

I am grateful for here, food water shelter @Faith-and-Hope ive tried to switch it all around but it doesnt seem to be happening

Ok @Shaz51

You're in a marathon, not a sprint @outlander ..... it will take a long time, so you have to get used to that idea to start with.

How much easier it would be if everything resolved wuickly and easily.

Like a long-distance rubber, you have to pace yourself, and draw comfort from every little change in the right direction ..... every little achievement ..... and pour yourself into things like your artwork.

You will see later, when you look back, how much you were achieving without realising it.

💜

Ok @Faith-and-Hope ill try to keep that mindset. Its just so damn hard

wuickly = quickly

rubber = runner

Lol

Sure is damn hard ..... so glad we don't have to do damn hard alone.