I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

lol theres nothing on anyway its jsut background noise while im talking to you guys. will prob head to bed soon and either put a movie on or put my headphones in @Former-Member

and xmas is hard here too. and yeah not needing a vet bill however its neccessary. i cant afford another horse dying. this injury shouldnt do much but its really deep so needs a vet. can see the bone

Thanks @outlander

Been a hard day and struggling a lot tonight with SH and SI thoughts so just taking it very slow tonight.

I hope you don't have to take the kids to school every day and can have some mornings to yourself

im not to sure @Former-Member its been there for it looks like 2 days as we are there every third day as theres tonnes of grass and it wasnt there then and apparently no one bothers to check on others horses!

@MDTworried about what?

well keep talking here or elsewhere or safety plan sis @Former-Member i shouldnt have to. but id rather take them to school in the morning than have them the entire weekend. i know that sounds bad right.

hey @MDT the bpd?

actually theres a thread dedicated to bpd sufferers, i can tag you into it if you like and talk to some other members with it too? of course your more than welcome to talk here but its a suggestion and i found it relaly helpful when i first diagnosed