I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Hi @Owlunar
Yes some changes indeed. Just have to keep following through with them which is the hardest part as thats when those guilty feelings come about and often cop the backlash of it but it need to happen.
I havent slept but went to gp and she wants me to take another course of antibiotics and have the rest of this week off. I didnt have to go back to work with second boss till friday anyway whats anothet 3 more days off. I do still have to care for pop though and he has a few appointments this week as do i so wont be laying around all day.

Anyway loggin off again. Cant handle much with this headache atm

And already took pop to appt. And the kids are about to be home from their outing with mum. Oh i cant wait-not

My pop might have cancer in his pancreas

@outlander oh, sweet lil Sis. No, I hope not. Not another thing. When you might? Is that a definite, or when will they have a proper answer?

My pop sis not me but I havent been coping with it since earlier today. Ive got to take pop for bloods and book him in for ct then get the results in the next few days.
He doesnt know it. He cant read the papers properly and i dont have the heart to tell him thats what they are looking for.
@Sans911

And they want a chest xray done of mine because they are suspecting something more serious than a virus

Ive been trying to stay positive all day and i cant.

@outlander - I'm swearing up up a storm in my thoughts right now. Looks a bit like this - :pile_of_poo:, 😱, 😡, 😣. Who says you need to stay positive? That's really, super duper difficult to do. 🤗 my sweet girl.

All you can do right now is breathe hun. Just breathe. I'm here in the silence or if you want to talk

I told her on my way out and she said dont tell him yet as the other possibility is the stent he had in has gone abit wobbly or scar tissue.
I keep crying but the more i do that tje worse my cough gets which is why theu want xrays done tomorrow and back there in thursday for results.
Its not fair 😞 😞