Night Shift

@PeppiPatty:

Hoping the anxiety has been treating you better today. Wonderful that you are going to your son's for dinner for the first time! Good news too about the physio.

@Appleblossom:

I agree that all members are welcome to join in this discussion at any time. It's always good to see a new 'face'. I too miss @eth and wonder how she is. It's good to hear you may be building up a rapport with your psychologist. I don't remember reading before that you were seeing one, had the idea you were only seeing the GP. At this time in my life, I too have chosen health practitioners in the general local area. Even the peer workers come from nearby. Somehow gives me a little feeling that I'm part of a caring local community.

Thanks @Former-Member. I've been reading what you are going through on your thread and my heart goes out to you. No easy answers have come to me so it has felt best to just listen there. You are not invisible.

I hope the entertaining went well @Mazarita & you enjoyed the company! Your anxiety/apprehension regarding the meeting is very understandable.

@Appleblossom hope you got some decent sleep eventually. I am glad you are now building a therapuetic relationship with your psychologist. Maybe it is better not to have a definate label? It is only really helpful for gaining a dsp & claiming medications on pbs - I think. Otherwise, I might as well say about myself - experiences depression, anxiety, psychosis, body image & eating issues & trauma related symptoms... Doctors (& society) like to put people in little boxes, which I personally don't think is helpful.

Matt's sister came to visit. I was too anxious & didn't feel like being social yesterday afternoon when we got home. I even skipped having a shower to avoid social interaction. I just got to see her briefly when I went to use the house bathroom this morning. Her boys came over to the cabin to play with the kittens, but they didn't talk to me (they seem to forget who I am everytime they see me...) I just went over to the house with my partner before to give them two animal books for Xmas & they had already gone. Feeling a bit depressed about it all. I hate Xmas.... They won't be here for Xmas day, as they spend it with their father's family every second year. (Actually a relief, as we don't have to play happy families with the alcoholic... just my partner, me & the kittens in the cabin) .....Apparently they are coming again after Xmas though, as my partner's mum's birthday is on the 27th December.

I'm just feeling depressed in general today... living situation, lack of functioning, happy family for Xmas, worrying about $$, back, neck & shoulder pain, getting tired from doing more than "normal".... etc.

@PeppiPatty - I agree it would be good for more people to join in on this thread! I know I have read some threads before & because everyone seemed to know eachother I didn't know how to join in.

Don't worry @Appleblossom & @PeppiPatty my partner is not invited to see my new psychologist who does CBT for psychosis. I haven't gone back to see the "relationship counsellor" social worker at Lifeline. I've been too busy travelling half an hour on the highway to go to yoga twice a week & to see the exercise physiologist, so I think that is why my partner hasn't questioned me about why I'm not seeing him - PHEW!

I'm going to go read - I've been up since 5:30 browsing facebook, reading relevant articles, online window shopping, sent an email etc.

Namaste,

Anna

Hi Girls,

How are you? I went to work and the Physio....then, diriving down the street, saw heaps of cute 4 year old toys on the side of the road...I grabbed me all for this little girl I used to care for...LJ was helping me make decisions about that.

Im definately getting a Vibration Machine by hypervibe, it's $191 deposit and $20 per fortnight for 65 paynments. The Pysio was showing me some excersises and he said that it will def. help me with the tiredness.

xx

Hi @Former-Member

How discouraging that the kids had gone before you could give them the animal books. That is such a sweet and thoughtful gesture of you. If you were really looking forward to giving them the books, I wonder if you could post it in the mail? After all, who doesn't love receiving a Christmas package, am I right? Otherwise, you could always wait until you see them next time, and I am sure it will make them very happy. Christmas in the cabin sounds lovely and cozy. Do you and your partner (and the kittens) have much planned? If you are looking for some extra company, keep in mind that we'll be here enjoying a Christmas Friday Feast and you are invited to come along and join in the fun 🙂 Reading is a soothing balm for the soul, I hope it is bringing you peace and calm this evening. Keep us posted on how you're doing. All the best, Mosaic.

Hi @Former-Member....

Thank you for your reply. It was disappointing... I will just wait for them to come after Xmas for partner's Mum's birthday. M partner's Mum really should of told us when they were leaving - she isn't very thoughtful like that.... My partner was going to give them the books to them yesterday, but one of them was asleep & his mum said not to! *throws hands up in air* I get frustrated at her sometimes... I would love to have one child one day, but my partner believes I will definately get postnatal depression & will need the assistance of his mum to care for a child. That puts me off wanting to have a child.... I have lived on her farm for over 12 months now & the constant contact with "in laws" causes anxiety.... Partners in Recovery are going to help me fill in a government housing application in the new year & I want to apply for a house in a coastal city - 3 hours away. It used to be just over an hour away when I lived in a capitol city. I miss the beach - I've been once this year & I was so unwell & suicidal I could barely enjoy it - I kept thinking what is the point of life if I can't live here & instead live in a stressful living situation far, far from the beach. A child or life near the beach...??

I finished reading my novel. I was slightly disappointed with some parts of the ending. Overall, it was a good read - The First Phone Call From Heaven - Mitch Albom. I've read 3 of his novels before & was browsing the bookstore shelves on Sunday & found books I haven't read. I have put in an order for another one of his books at the library.

@PeppiPatty what do you do for work?? You must be in a lot of pain to spend so much money on a machine. I googled "vibration machine by hypervibe", but couldn't work out what it is. I'm imagining it is a very high tech massage chair? I'm glad the physio helped...

Namaste,

Anna