Night Shift

@Mazarita Just watched the sky transition from dark to almost blue, listening to the birds and seeing the stars fade. What a glorious morning.

About the test at the Dr's - be brave. Better to get the results and at least it can be treated properly and you might get relief. Who knows, your results might be all clear. I have what's called 'dumping syndrome' - charming name hey? It's exactly what it sounds like it might be and I've had what I think could be the same test looking for a cause. They didn't find anything and just say it's stress related. It's awful, especially if it happens when I'm out. Have tried excluding all the possible dietary issues and it didn't change anything. I think chrone's disease would be worse tho' - you'd have a lot more pain I imagine.

@eth, Yes I think it is the same test we are talking about. It's not the results I'm particularly worried about (already know I have crohns). It's the whole invasive process of the tests from the sickening preparation you have to drink to the invasive procedure itself. Even though it's under anaesthetic, it just gets me phobic just the thought of what is being done to my body. I too get the similar problems to you with 'dumping' as you and the crohns was excrutiating before I had large sections of intestine removed. But these days it treats me comparatively well. I think the fact that I've cut down hugely on stress in my life makes a big difference too.

So great you got out and saw that magnificent morning!

You are spot on there about SEQ, @Silenus. I am fascinated by dreams too, have made short films about them and written them out a lot in my life. Agree they are like free movies at times too. These ones lately have me sweating a bit though, Beethoven style. Epic and complex the last one was, like a twisty European art movie. Hope your day is a beauty.

@Mazarita You will get through it and afterwards I feel you will be glad you did it. I didn't have any after effects at all with mine.

When I was in my 20's I worked for a colorectal specialist - what an experience that was. I was hired as a secretary but with a science background it wasn't long before I was assisting with in-rooms procedures. He was such an old fuddy duddy even tho he was a leader in the field. Not exactly open-minded towards gay men for example. Have written a poem about those days but it's not really suitable for these forums.

Oh wow, what a job @eth. Yes, I'm sure some doctors can be less than savoury while we are under anaesthetic too, which is part of what I find so potentially humiliating too. I really have a general phobia about hospitals and have checked myself out of being an inpatient twice in my life having panic attacks there. But I will be brave this time round. Will probably have to go on a waiting list for it for some time anyway as I have no private insurance.

True that about waiting @Mazarita. By the way what did SEQ stand for?

@eth SEQ = south east queensland. Same situation with the green in Northern NSW. But yeah, not troubled by it now and feel strong about staying that way.