Night Shift

Sleep well. @Former-Member My son is on the piano but I think we will both go to bed soon.

@Jacques is on the "catching up" thread mostly and is very worried about his friend. We all are.

You can click on the profile pic and see the main threads people use. Or you can start with titles. Or type into the box a topic and see where it leads you. It takes a while to get around the site. Sometimes I would trawl through old threads to try understand what was going on. When you have been around for a while it makes more sense.

I also really like the chatty tone on this thread ... and felt we were becoming friends. In some ways I have more anxieties about women than men, so it was very important for me to connect with a group of women. Mind you I havent gotten back into a relationship again.

Hey @Mazarita you started this one ... I think about you and @Shaz51 . @PeppiPatty seems overwhelmed with her son staying over.

Hope they post soon.

Hey @Appleblossom. I think about you and others too. I'm just very low at the moment, sleeping most of the day or sitting in a chair staring into space. In this quiet late night my foggy head has cleared for a bit and so I thought I'd jump in here for a bit. Hi,@PeppiPatty, I think of you too. I know you are going through really testing times and am hoping there is good in it as well.

dear @Mazarita

yeah......so not well.

i am needing to see my support person so can understand whats happening. The mood stabiliser pills are awesome.

Is'nt it strange but the person who is helping me the most is my ........character crossed husband. today, I put the sane forums petition signing thing on and I was thinking of all my friends here and reading a few @Shaz51 messages on how shes coping thinking how we all support each other. I bought a second hand book online from Booko on dollhouses so I can start looking at how to make them .........

Thinking about everyone

@Appleblossom @Mazarita @Ellie @Jacques @hiddenite @lisajane @nab @kirstin @Billamba @Belle @Angels333 @Chris @Former-Member @Jacques @chookmojo @stu @Briar

Thanks @Appleblossom, @Mazarita, @PeppiPatty, @Former-Member & @Former-Member,

@Appleblossom that is a fantastic idea, i am going to try to set something up today, i might have a spot in the shed i can change the locks so no one can come near me, it will be my space, i know mum will not mind.

Thinking of all you ladies, please stay safe, be kind to yourselves and know i am thinking of you all, you all mean so much to me. thank you for saving my life.

Jacques

@Mazarita You made a galiant effort to get out in the world and had a physical hiccup. I hope that has healed and you find some get up and go again.

Do you have any music at home to still play the ukelele?

Hows the staged reduction of smoking going?

I still havent succumbed to buying instant coffee ... so managing that vice ... but enjoying a nice brew at the minute.

@PeppiPatty Glad your husband is giving you some love ... you deserve it. we miss your effervescence ... dont go away for too long ...

@Jacques call it what works for you ... but we all need space of our own. I have got my space, but am having difficulty getting fully active in it. Maybe I just needed a long time to recover???

I need and value any encouragement.

Hi @Appleblossom,

I find it hard to leave my room, i know i have many other places i can go, but this feels most safest (if that makes any sense) sometimes we setup spaces to use but don't utilise them to the best of their ability, keep your space @Appleblossom, use it when you want don't feel you need to be using it all the time, remember it is like a holliday you don't live their, it is somewhere to go for a change of scenery.

I do hope today treats you well, i am so glad you are enjoying a proper coffee, their is nothing nicer than the smell of coffee permiating through the house. enjoy the sun light if you have it, take in some deep breaths of some fresh air out side and make it a good start to the day.

Thank you for keeping me company, i am getting really anxious now, my aunt will be back this afternoon.

Jacques

Yes the smell of coffee is part of why brewing it is so good. I have often thought I had no sense of smell .. so now things are more settled for me ..I am trying to find ways of cultivating it ... rubbing my hands in lavender, rosemary and peppercorn leaves ... help.

Keep in touch about your aunt.

I am a bit anxious about my son's girl-friend or just plain friend .. ?? ... she is coming over next week for 4 nights. She has a way of bossing and taking over .. we are working it out ...

we might both need to be able to share ...

Take care @Jacques I need to go and do some practise .. my son wants me to accompany him in some arias in public ... so I better get it right.

Hey @Appleblossom
How are you? How is your piano? How many hours do you play per day?

I only like drinking week coffee...
I Love getting messages from you
Thanks, from your friend pp

Yes I agree .. keep posting @Jacques

Did you have to share your bedroom as a lounge ... is that what the problem is? Some people dont realise how others dont have clear private-public demarcations.

If that is the case .. your mum will definitely support a locked area that is yours alone.

Hi @PeppiPatty I love getting messages from you. In many ways I have felt invisible a lot and so it is interesting to get genuine responses of how I come across. I am open to change and working with people, but I guess we can all only change so much.

I was just playing a little Bach ... a cantata and an adagio. I have to play more piano but I stpped when son started taking over studio, slowly I am claiming it back ... maybe cos of childhood I have real difficulties myself with public private distinctions ... a fellow once said that my lounge was a public space. eg I never really had a private loo ... til 11 yo .. as before that shared with old drunks and others in boarding houses, in caravan parks, or with kids in orphanages. It is part of a strength ... that I do like about myself ,, that I have no boundaries or elitism ... but also can be draining ... as I habitually lay myself open to a lot, it seems strange to set boundaries.

The kids in my street broke some more plants which I cleaned up today .. I have decided to have a chat with them .. about the difference between dead bits on plants and live bits and deliberate damage and tell them I feel I need to be bit more quiet with them and less friendly because I feel hurt. I also decided not to replace 3 broken plants for a while ... so they can keep seeing the damage ... a new lady who works as an aid in school has moved in .. and I chatted with it about her as she was witness ... at least .. I feel some support from her. Maybe I dont have to move out ...

I do hope @Mazarita realises her value on the forum and doesnt retreat too far ... that might just be me being selfish .. and tired of getting to know more people and never being able to relax and feel that I know people, and am known by them... enough to have some sense of a social circle.

I am ok ... fragile ... and a bit shakey ... but I am used to that and it might be having a whole pot of coffee this morning ... it will be a bit of an experiment to see ... how much I can handle ... and what is good for me ... it would be nice to have someone to share the coffee with then I wouldnt be greedy and have it all ... @Jacques ??? some virtual coffee ??

cheers ... my Forum Family.