Night Shift

Hi @BamBam I tried a bit of colouring lately, but its not my main way of being, not really into it as a kid.

I do like mandalas though.

I also have been a swimmer. I started laps at the Beaurepaire and I guess I felt bad for doing only 5 or 10 laps as every one there was so brilliant at sport as well. Before that it was more surfing and beach rambles I loved. I guess comparison is always around and often it is not very conscious. The good thing is that it was the activity that helped me give up smoking cigarettes. I must be weird because I feel that normal for me is 10 -20 laps when I havent been regularly exercising because I am no longer a smoker. I am beginning to realise my expectations are up the pot and I push myself too hard.

I was diagnosed with depression a long time ago, I have had many experiences and am passionately interested in most aspects of mental health. No one told the psychiatrist I was swimming 20-40 laps then, so maybe it wasnt depression ... I dont know any more.

Therapeutic horticulture sounds very interesting. Tell us more about it. Can you talk about your job?

I am so proud of you @Former-Member, you are so lucky to be able to cry, it is good to release your emotions, i am glad your partner was so loving and supportive, he loves you, please never doubt that, you will achieve all you want to in life, just give it time.

Good luck, be kind to yourself

Namaste

Jacques

Sorry you went off in the darkness to cry. @Former-Member I used to do it a lot when my kids were little. I would go off for 20-30 mins and cry into the night and then return and finish the dishes, or the nappies (mine were all cloth) or the general laundry. Often I just ran out of the house after the kids were down. Couldnt hold the tears down any more. So I have been there too.

We cant actually take another person's pain away. After 30 years therapy I am finally getting a bit of distance and relief from it, it might not take you as long ... you might be brighter, there might be more helpful info around etc. I am getting used to being able to live with it though. Small consolation maybe, but ... I try not to make rash promises.

I know a girl, younger than you to whom I say similar things as your partner. It is not even necessary to point to major counts of wrong doing in the news.

It seems that the humans who are gentler and actually care about the environment and how they effect others get bullied more in this world full of individualistic me me meness.

We really do need more people like you, @Former-Member and more like @BamBam many on this forum. I am still interested in why you enrolled in therapeutic horticulture.

The world doesnt need less people who care. The world needs more.

It needs less of the greedy kind ... sorry @PeppiPatty No rich hubbies for you .. lol.

hugs jsut for you @PeppiPatty and one from my snuggly little boy who's sleepng in my lap

lj

Good night @PeppiPatty, i hope tomorrow is better for you 🙂

Hi @Former-Member, how are you going? only 2 more sleeps until you have finished your first term, i am so proud of you, you do so much and fight on, you are such an amazing woman and mother.

I hope the lil guy likes his birthday gift, have you managed to get it together yet?

Yes i did get it together but the front brakes arent right, will hve to you tube that doh! but its together... excuse the dodge photo my phone wouldnt stop using the flash! gah! now to try and keep it hidden for a few more days!

This term we have 11 weeks and its only week 8 so back to school on Tuesday for us here. Hopefully 4 days off will give me a chance to catch my breath a bit.

Hope you are doing ok Jacques. So much happening for you too, thinking of you,

LJ