Night Shift

hehe @Billamba yes, i think quite a few of us do... unfortunately i do most of my castrophising quietly and internally and sink into amassive hole and nobody knows.. but i'm getting better at talking things out honestly with my psychologist...

@Former-Member not only do you ALWAYS catastrophise, but i note you EXAGGERATE too! *tut-tuts and scribbles something down*

@Former-Member DON'T let yourself fall into a hole without telling someone so they can help fish you out. I used to do that - be in terrible emotional pain and smiling on the outside - it's a VERY bad idea. Get help/support before you get into that state again.

yes!! @Terry i agree... thats what led to a month in hospital for me...

@Billamba - write your memoirs and then decide if you will publish. writing your memoirs is probably pretty important for your 'sanity', and people now and in future generations should know what we go through and have been through. writing your memoirs is a good way to share your stuff directly with god and to heal. and then my advice is to try to get them published. that's what one of the books i am working on at the moment is about (my life story). the other book is a book of poetry.

@Former-Member that's one of the reasons i think you are so brave to go back to work, lisajane - i have noticed that most people with mental illnesses aren't in touch with their feelings, which means they don't recognise when they need an outlet of some kind or another for their feelings and/or time out.

Hi everyone,

So busy in here tonight, haven't read all the posts. Just got home from a friend's place where we were hit with a wild electrical storm and blackout. It scared me. I stood in a darkened doorway and did deep breathing to get through it. Afterwards, when the whole suburb was black the hoons came out on the street burning around. We lit some candles, sang a little, talked a little, played some guitar. We were all desperate for a coffee, lol. It was so quiet without the power on. It felt a bit like camping. We get storms here fairly regularly but this one was a big banger!

@PeppiPatty, I saw your post about your mum. How awful for you. I think @LittleBuddha is so wise to suggest you not contact your mum for now and maybe not until some of these feelings settle down a bit. So sorry you are really struggling at the moment.

@Billamba, I really felt uncomfortable after raving on about my work history and past in one of those discussions the other day. I appreciate the life I've had in many ways, and what's happening now, even if I haven't done so well in the past in the paid workforce. My moods go up and down and this comes out on the forum too, sometimes even without me realising it. Thanks for your good wishes on the op shop volunteering. Drama queen here too!

@Former-Member, so glad you got through week one well. You are amazing, inspiring and I just know you are a great teacher too. How wonderful about doing the choir and music!

write your memoirs - it is extremely 'healing', and god does care. don't worry if you don't write well - i will edit your work for $140 an hour. hee hee! :0

seriously 'though, don't worry if you don't write well - if the story's good enough, and i bet it is, a publishing house will put a good editor onto it. and even if you decide not to publish, it is an extremely worthwhile and healing exercise, as described above.