Night Shift

Hello @Former-Member

It is raining very heavy here all Day

No mowing this week , got a 2 hrs cleaning job in the morning and that`s it

Happy birthday to your husband for tomorrow , how old will he be ?

Hope you are ok after that awful nightmare , I hate them

Sorry to hear about your afternoon @Former-Member, hope it settles down

being a step mum is tricky at times , even though they are all adults now , we still have our ups and downs , but I know they all like me in their own way

It's strange how I don't have nightmares for a long time, then I start having them again, @Former-Member and @Shaz51. I used to have them all the time, at least they happen less often. Poor hubby gets woken by a loud scream, lol. I know where they are coming from and I just want to "get over it", hehe! I am relieved that I am going the the psychologist at the end of the month, can't wait. I haven't found one I feel comfortable with, but this time I am hopeful. Haven't been for years, too hard trying to struggle on my own.

Thankyou for the birthday wishes for hubby, @Shaz51. He's in his 50's, but he doesn't look it. He's still young inside. We haven't been getting on very well for a long time, but I'm hoping things will work out once I get myself sorted out, concerning PTSD etc. Marriage has been a roller-coaster, that's for sure, lol.

@Former-Member I re-connected with an old childhood friend on facebook a couple of years ago. I asked him if he noticed that I had ADHD when we were young. He said, "I always wondered why I couldn't keep up with you, lol).

Hope you have a peaceful night sleep tonight @Former-Member

Hi Everybody 😊

@Shaz51

D3 is much better today .... thank goodness ... cos she's got her dinner-dance on tonight ....

@Former-Member

We're buying in food for the 21st, but I always make the birthday cake, usually chocolate, cos that's the favourite around here, and usually in the number that they're turning ....

I'm thinking of going as Princess Leia from Star Warz .... but not decided yet .... and not in the gold bikini if I do .... lol ❣

Hope your hubby has a good birthday week ....

Hi @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Former-Member

Thank you guys for thinking of me. My test went well today and I will get the results next Tuesday afternoon when I go back to my specialist. I did write a longer response but I accidentally closed the window I was writing the response to you all. Last night I struggled to sleep again but I did sleep this afternoon. I hope you all had a nice day.

You have so much wisdom @Faith-and-Hope . Your family & friends are so lucky to have such a caring and compassionate person in their lives. You are right relationships are tough at times but also incredibly rewarding and fulfilling too. I am glad you got in a lovely walk yesterday and find it really good for clearing my head and also for my mood and anxiety levels and many other health benefits to exercise. Even though you said you were unmotivated you still seemed to get a lot done ie emails, gift shopping, foot massage etc Did hubby get home okay last night? It was good that you wer relaxing last night and was able to distract yourself, I think you said you were watching TV Knitting etc. Why were you feeling a bit flat I sometimes feel like that too and I don't really unsterstand why- what is the undelying cause: anxiety, fear,grief, sadness but its probably combination of things including the depression. I think its perfectly normal to feel this way- just be kind to yourself.

I didn't sleep well last night and have been struggling the last few weeks but I did have a sleep this afternoon for a few hours it was not ideal for me to sleep during the day but it has been ages since I have slept during the day. I would rather get some sleep and risk having a relapse because of lack of sleep. I did a few household chores- payed bills, dropped off dvds, washed sheets and doona cover and made up my bed, cooked healthy meal- even though I was struggling I come through okay and now going to watch a bit of TV.

Hi @Former-Member. .... 😊

Thank you for your lovely words .... its very nice to feel appreciated ... it's also easy to care when people care back ....

Yes, hubby got back okay last night .... and his regimen with him .... he's out jogging in the pouring rain at the moment .... (sigh)

I feel flat when I run low on energy, knowing that there are many aspects of our situation that are very difficult, but I have done as much as I can with it, and now I have to wait for the rest of it to resolve itself .... it's hard to watch people doing things the hard way against all good advice .... but when it's illness, they just can see for themself.

I try not to dwell on it. My faith has me believing it will come through eventually, and we will be stronger and wiser for it ...

🌷💗💕

..what is your 'regimen' re your attribution of that to WH? .. how does he see you? does he exist?

ok you have pots coffee etc dolphins, river etc, just occured to me, how does he see you? and had you thought of that aside from diagnoses?.. just wondered @Faith-and-Hope