FORUMS

Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

  • 47,612Members
  • 1,358,869Posts
  • 1,400,000Visitors
Something’s not right

LOST

LOST

I feel like I've been chained to the bottom of the darkest pit since before the umbilical cord was cut. There seems no point climbing out, as I'll fall straight back down. Small steps are too hard and days and nights just merge together in an endless struggle. Even finding the right words is impossible. My fur baby is my lifeline, but right now I believe she deserves better, more than I can give her. There's no where to find comfort or belonging. Worse than hopeless, worse than dispare. Just lost.

50 replies

31 - 40 of 50
1...345

In response to: LOST

Re: LOST

Oh Dear @Former-Member I hear your pain and sadness through the air waves, and LOST is a hard place to be. Please know we are here with you in and through this, I know it's not the real world, and a comforting hug goes a long way, but I'm sending a long embrace with the warmest thoughts. I think every parent grieves when children move out, even though there is some relief mixed in. Letting go of my foster daughter was hell, but there was a relief also. No more endless crying and demands, she was unwell and could only let us know in her own way. I could sleep again and find time to eat, but the empty arms and broken heart, yes I hear you. Tears are good, exhausting but a release and healthy....eventually. I wish I could say the right things to ease you pain, but I can't, but I will be beside you, we all will. There are many here who care and understand. No worries about long posts either, just be you.

I have put up the net curtains in my lounge room with road rage language learned from my visitor, something I've picked up remarkedly well I might add. My counsellor comes in the morning, so I wanted to have my part done before she arrives. How I wish I could share her with you, I would in a heartbeat.

Im sorry you've lost touch with your Irish friend. Yes I was amazed to see the cyclone in Ireland, the two don't go together, I hope she's ok. I haven't seen the DVD of Bernadette, my name chosen in the convent was one of the Fatima children, brings back memories.

You are probably moving stuff as I type this and hurting. A warm hug.💔💔💔💛💛💛

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

In response to: LOST

Re: LOST

@Maggie - I know you don't want a reply so I won't reply beyond this (unless you would like to talk) but I will send you a heap of these 💜💙💛💚 and tell you I am thinking of you (and hope that's ok that I have).

@Former-Member for you too 💗💗💗

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

Thank you @Maggie and @CheerBear ❤️

My daughter just left and it actually ended up going well. She told us she loved us and she will visit and visa versa.

@Maggie I can't tell you how much your friendship and warm loving care helped me through this. You are a treasure to me - a forever friend. Thank you.

That must of been so painful for you @Maggie when you parted with your foster daughter. The love you showed her in those early years will always stay with her giving her strength. Something I so wish I had as a child - even if it was for a little while. But the love I have now from friends, my husband/daughter, you and my online friends sustains me now. And you are all my family also.

You made me laugh out loud again - putting up curtains with gusto and the odd curse here and there haha. Can't wait to see the pics when they are done. Good to read you are getting help with them. Tomorrow morning will be a bright day for you as a beautiful light will enter your home. I do wish I could share her with you too. She is a rare treasure indeed.

What a wonderful honour being named after one of the Fatima children. Lovely memories. I always found convents and monasteries to be very peaceful, although a hard life. You bring back good memories for me too. I will now go back and read about the Fatima visionaries lives again - I find it so interesting.

That you for the hugs and care @Maggie and @CheerBear - I feel it and it makes for sweet dreams ❤️💜🌹

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

@CheerBear - I meant to also say congrats on your new role as Community Guide!!! You are so warm, caring and understanding - a great choice by Sane 😊🌹

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

Hi @Maggie,

I just had the urge to wander by and deliver this to you. I am so super grateful that you introduced me to this song - I play it A LOT. Tonight I just felt like delivering it to you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aF7yFOlOk9M

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

@CheerBear Thankyou, it seems I'm actually more lost than I thought and no words seems to fit, I know you GET IT, that means so much. 💗💗💗

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

@Former-Member I'm actually a mess but just want to let you know I'm sending warm thoughts even though words done come out. ❣❣❣

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

@Phoenix_Rising I've never listened to that song once without crying, Thankyou.💖💖

In response to: Re: LOST

Re: LOST

Hello @Maggie

Ahhh my friend, I wish I could take your pain. Did your social worker come around this morning? How did it go? You don't have to talk if you can't at the moment, I understand. I will be right here when you are ready too. I am sitting there with you in spirit wrapping you in a hug - feel its warmth. I will never leave your side. Love is all around you. Draw from its strength - its real. We will see this through together. Here for you 💜🌹xxxx

31 - 40 of 50
1...345