Taking the plunge

Hello my friend @Maggie,

Such an anbundance of colour to light up not only your life but all who see it. So beautiful - just loved the photos @Maggie. Thank you - keep sharing.

You did it again maggie, I keeled over in laughter. So our nose and ears keep growing as we get older haha. So do we have this to look forward to when older 😱:lying_face:😫🤣😂🤣

Outrunning thoughts are sometimes hard - so I outrun my anxiety keeping busy. Sometimes works.

You read my thoughts again - I was just thinking of the writing group today! But did not want to raise it thinking it might pressure you aha. We think alike. I will sit with it when I finish this post and sees what comes onto paper. Not far off finishing now and have a few surprises up my sleeve. Next week is my hubby's appts (31st Oct, 1st Nov, 2nd Nov) so won't get much done that week, but not long now until it's up. Should be fun and in time for Christmas hopefully haha.

So off I am to write now, wish me luck - keep enjoying the soft green carpet underfoot (that phase is in the first part of my story!!! - music blaring do do do do do do - yes a very lame imitation of the twilight zone 😬). And enjoy the beautiful weather, it's those simple things enjoyed in peace that partly keeps me going. You were 💯 percent spot on - my husband's love keeps the other part of me going. He saved me. I wouldn't be the person I am without him; someone is always sent to us to show us some light, when and if we are ready and open to it. Hugs 🤗xx

@Former-Member I nearly fell off my chair laughing, Thankyou. I do hope that sense of humour comes through in the writing group along with pics of course.

We will have to hatch a plan for those app. days. Let's put our heads together and see what we come up with.

I had an exciting discovery this afternoon. There's quite a story behind my young passionfruit vine and sadly today I pulled it out to throw it away as no growth was showing. And there they were, tiny little growth deep down in the roots, not yet visible. As I recently discovered my neighbour sprays that side of our property, I dug a hole over the other side and replanted it. Nature is amazing. I gave it a really good start, you know the liver down the hole trick, well it works, but so disgusting for a vegetarian I tell you. Then it was suggested I dig it up as I had it all wrong, no way hosay, that vine stays.😩😩😩 So I'm all excited about that. Anyway, have a good night. 💓💓💓

@Former-Member I have a little plan. My counsellor gave me these ( pic to come) years ago. Sometimes they live under my pillow, other times my handbag, they also got lost during the moves, but found again. You can borrow them to carry you through the days ahead, only if you want to.

Hello @Maggie

Those worry dolls are so cute - they brought a smile to my face which eased my anxiety. Thank you my dear friend. Knowing I can talk to you here does too - I know you will keep me positive. The most nerve racking apt will be this Monday - where hubby will have a nerve block in his lower spine. They can be risky. I find it so hard sitting in the waiting room and I will tell you why. Last time he had this injection he collapsed. We thought for a moment he was gone. Although I don't believe that he will die or anything it still holds bad memories.

I just sat down from returning from bingo, then went straight over to daughter's house to help her unpack all her things. My back is now gone, very sore, so am just taking it easy presently. I won at bingo again too lol :money_mouth_face: Also didn't get to sleep until 1:30 am - I stayed up working on the story. Not much more to do now. My first installment in the writing group will be longer than a few paragraphs - that is because I need to introduce the theme of the story and set up the scene/story line. After that I won't be writing as much when it comes back around to my turn as others like yourself will join in and take over in turns. I will explain more once I put it up.

I have started the beginning of the story with a mixture of serenity, intense drama, romance, everyday life feelings, events, a dash of horror, and the supernatural to add a thrill. The central character is a fictitious 32 yr old struggling female journalist. She has "the mystery man" and the nemesis to contend with throughout her everyday journey that hopefully leads to a climax (who will will out/her?). She likes to report the truth and finds herself in dangerous situations as a result. She struggles with personal identity being slightly depressed. It's a thriller type.

When people have there turn to write and join in they will make it there own" (only thing required is keeping in line with the story theme and characters). Comedy and pics can be thrown in the mix as well if people want. It can be anything the writers want. It should be interesting to see where it ends up lol.

We may or may not finish the story, will just see where it goes and it will be fun regardless. Then once we finish that particular first story, yourself or another writing group participant can select the next new theme, a new story line and start another writing adventure off and so on. The ideas can be limitless.

When I was part of a collaborative writing group on another forum before I joined this one, the story line was about an Indian boy called Gandhi, whom was disadvantaged and although very intelligent and an IT specialist, felt under accomplished in life. I didn't think I would have a clue about how to join in that, but I did and did okay. I surprised myself of where my imagination took me; did a little research about the info on the basics of operating a computer so I sounded a bit authentic. It was so much fun. I found it not only fun, but also enriching as it challenged me to stretch my mind/imagination to think outside the box; writing about other people's lives, cultures, and daily/ world events as so forth that I may never have thought about or encountered before.

So glad you replanted the vine. It will grow in glory now through all your loving nurturing, wait and see. I have never heard of planting liver around plant roots? What nutrients does that give out and enrich the soil with? - something like blood and bone? Fascinating, I learn something new everyday. Can't wait to see the progress pics of that vine!

I am totally exhausted, but in a nice way. It has been go go go for me. I am off to my volunteer work tomorrow. What are your plans? Sending a warm cyber hug 🤗

@Former-Member I can imagine the anxiety from previous experiences. I so wish there was something more I could do. Do you have a friend who could wait with you? I'm presuming this is done then you both return home, sounds really difficult for both of you. Could your daughter go with you??

The liver in the passionfruit hole gives it iron, as far as I know it's done only with passionfruit, but I'm no gardener. I'm hoping this survives.

Your writing thread sounds like it will be amazing, interesting, challenging and fun. Looking forward to,it when you are ready.

Tomorrow I will be at the eye hospital. I discovered after the fall I have cataract and have to wait a year to get them removed, waiting list. Tomorrow they will pierce one with a laser I think, to help in the meantime. I hate appointments, but it has to be done. Certified old age sucks. I'll spend the night in a panic, I always do.

Im off to the shower and hoping to find something worth watching on tv. Sending you warm thoughts. 💜💜💜

Hi @Maggie,

I was really interested to read your reflection on what love is because it is a concept I super struggle with too. I have a long history of telling people "I love you" only for them to ask me not to say it because it makes them feel icky. I super don't understand that. It is why I am now extremely wary of saying it, and why I feel so utterly bewildered by the way "I love you" gets thrown around Forum Land so much.

My psychologist of 16 years told me that I don't know what it means to love. He also told me that I am too weird for anyone to ever love me and that I will only ever be able to get loved in my imagination.

I believe I know how to love. I believe that helping each of my animals to make safe passage across the Rainbow Bridge when they are no longer having fun is the supreme act of love.

You commented that you think it is tricky having multiple words to choose from. I found that super interesting because to me the issue is more that in English we only have the one word for love (i.e. "love"). I think the ancient Greeks had a much better handle on the concept because they had multiple terms: (Eros, Philia, Ludus, Agape, Pragma, Philautia). http://www.yesmagazine.org/happiness/the-ancient-greeks-6-words-for-love-and-why-knowing-them-can-change-your-life

So...I'm not sure that I have any answers for you @Maggie, but I wanted to let you know that you are not alone in finding the concept of love tricky.