Taking the plunge

When pain is all around. I seem to have no where to go to be free from bumping into walls of deep dark pain. It's not something I can find words for, to express the isolatted, alone feelings. And I don't know if anyone else understands what I'm talking about. It's deep and it's painful. I feel out of reach almost suffocating in my own dark dispare. I've tried the strategies, and distractions, but it's in my own skin and I can't get away from me. Does anyone " GET" this, or is it my personal world????

@CheerBear Just a response is worth more than I can express. Thankyou.

Heading off for the day @Maggie and leaving this reminder for you here on my way through

Lots of hugs 💗

Hi @Maggie

I believe I understand only too well how you are feeling. Is it a feeling like "I don't belong in this world"? "I feel irrelevant in this world". "I can't connect with anyone?" "People won't really like me" Is that the lonliness and despair you feel? That does come from deep within - borne of mental scars. Things can trigger that self belief system and make it more intense at times. Christmas can make some feel more lonely. Am I on the right track? Then I do relate.

It is hard to describe and I too can withdraw - distractions lessen the intensity but is not enough here. Self belief and connecting with others in a positive way or nature/purpose is, but the irony is that is the last thing we are likely to do when feeling such despair. A vicious cycle.

Talking about for me and having some others relate lessens the lonliness and helps. But Many do not relate I think. That's the hard part.

I know this may not make much difference but for what it is worth @Maggie and @Former-Member, I think you are beautiful people, very special in your own unique way and you have enriched my life - and many others on here. Your lives matter to us and I have no doubt you enrich everyone in some way that you come in contact with - even if that be a few. I know you won't see it, I don't see it with me - but outside of me I can see and it's true. That type of self depreciation and lack of personal worth and belonging clouds our entire world and perception that can be the most painful part, the despairing part. Hurts that are deeply cemented. Oh, the inner lonliness, even when surrounded by others. I then look for any small light of hope, goodness and friendship to see me through........Mental scars can run deep. Thanks for sharing @Maggie and @Former-Member 😊🌹

Hi @utopia
How is your day going?

The book 1984 is one of Orwell’s best-crafted novels, and it remains one of the most powerful warnings ever issued against the dangers of a totalitarian society. It reflects an age where media and political influence seek to brainwash the masses into their way of government and power (i.e. Govt s influenced by donating corporations wanting to fend to their interests only monetarily and do not want to assist those struggling in society with welfare - so they depict in the media and on air those dependent on welfare "are bludgers, drug addicts, alcoholics, lazy, not really sick and dishonest taking advantage of the system etc" (even though in reality most are genuinely struggling and only a small minority are taking advantage), but they brainwash the populace through the above technology so they can justify withholding money and assistance to the needy to cater to the rich, powerful and their own self interest. So they society in the dark. The technology/media used was referred by Orwell as "Big Brother" back then and the brainwashing political agenda and its supporters were known as "the thought police". (So close to what is really happening in politics/media and those with an agenda now. If one is not for them they are the enemy and labelled all sorts of things and bullied into submission ).

In Spain, Germany, and the Soviet Union, the author Orwell had witnessed the danger of absolute political authority in an age of advanced technology. He illustrated that peril harshly in 1984. His foresight of this into the future was amazing for his time. Like Aldous Huxley’s Brave New World (1932), 1984 is one of the most famous novels of the negative utopian, or dystopian, genre. Unlike a utopian novel, in which the writer aims to portray the perfect human society, a novel of negative utopia does the exact opposite: it shows the worst human society imaginable, in an effort to convince readers to avoid any path that might lead toward such societal degradation. In 1949, at the dawn of the nuclear age and before the television had become a fixture in the family home, Orwell’s vision of a post-atomic dictatorship in which every individual would be monitored ceaselessly by means of the telescreen seemed terrifyingly possible. But now so close to reality. That Orwell postulated such a society a mere thirty-five years into the future compounded this fear.

1984 remains an important novel, in part for the alarm it sounds against the abusive nature of authoritarian governments, but even more so for its penetrating analysis of the psychology of power and the ways that manipulations of language and history can be used as mechanisms of control. If I ever get round to writing my novel, I will be incorporating such political style of writing in part (as it will incorporate many different scenarios) and will express the nature of agenda 21. Which is a real worry and an example of this type of political control for the future in my opinion. Poor kids.

Its a really interesting read if you like that sort of thing. I love history and would also find what you are reading about early aboriginal,tribe and white settlement very interesting. I did research a bit into such in early NSW history and many of the Aborigines would help white people whom struggled to survive in the bush - but the way they were treated was nothing short of disgraceful and shameful. Hopefully we have come a long way from that now. I believe the early aboriginal tribes had the better and healthier idea of how to live, being in nature and close to the spirit of the land. White man stuffed it up big time. Hope your day is going good 😊