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I feel desperately lonely yet, I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I don't belong in the 'Normal' world because I am tarred with the brush of mental ill health, yet because I've sort of stabilised now, I don't belong with my former peers either. I feel beige, uncoloured and boring with no emotion really even though if I had to say anything it is gutted. I feel trapped in a world I don't want and didn't ask for, yet whenever I try and break the shackles of failure, I am thrust back into the dark and reminded yet again of my failures (my Father is a constant person to remind me). I feel alone, even in a crowded room. I feel unheard, even if I am screaming loudly.

I guess I am just searching for something and not sure what.

Does anyone else feel beige?

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mm sounds yum not!- maybe try sustagen as well. you can buy the premixes and is a good suppliment as well0 kinda like up and go but has more in it. @Queenie

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That's actually not a bad idea at all @outlander. I can get some from the chemist on the way to the Dentist (they are in the same group of shops). Thanks 🙂

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no worries @Queenie hopefully youll feel better after tomorrow

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Hello forumites I'm back for a flying visit before I head off to bed. I've been laid low with an infection following my tooth extraction Thursday. I was at my local hospital last night and had a house call doctor here today. I finally am starting to feel a little bit better now thankfully.

There's been a lot of pain and a lot of tears shed in the last 48 hours by me.

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@Queenie
Sounds like you're having a rough time! 😔
Thankfully you are starting to feel better. Rest up and i hope your pain continues to ease.
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Thank you @Bella1978. A free night tonight will be on the cards I hope.

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hey Q howd you go at the dentist? has your pain eased at all? @Queenie

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Hey @outlander my pain has subsided down to a dull ache now which is more than bearable when compared to the sharp pain I was feeling last week. I have another tooth gone. At this rate, I'll have no teeth left lol! Still have to have a major dental x-ray to check on my wisdom teeth to have them pulled out.

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thank god its dying down! @Queenie it mustve been so awful! ive gone one of my wisdom teeth coming through, im hoping it doesnt cause troubles. i dont like dentists. i made an appt once and never went! havent been back since.

how are have been? hows your therapy going? (i think you said you were going to look into that?) hows your driving going?

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Hey @outlander, the driving hasn't been happening for a while. I just lack the self-confidence to get behind the wheel, especially after an accident (I wasn't driving). I think it is the fact I am in control of something which could potentially hurt someone if I am not on my game prevents me. It is kind of weird.

I've been go go go all this week and had no time to make a therapist appointment as yet. We have my Mrs' kids here and have had to entertain them for the school holidays, so my needs aren't the highest priority at the moment (which is okay). Next week I hope to get there sometime, even if it is an evening appointment.

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