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I feel...

QueenieSenior Contributor25 Sept 2017, 10:10 pm AEST

I feel...

I feel desperately lonely yet, I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I don't belong in the 'Normal' world because I am tarred with the brush of mental ill health, yet because I've sort of stabilised now, I don't belong with my former peers either. I feel beige, uncoloured and boring with no emotion really even though if I had to say anything it is gutted. I feel trapped in a world I don't want and didn't ask for, yet whenever I try and break the shackles of failure, I am thrust back into the dark and reminded yet again of my failures (my Father is a constant person to remind me). I feel alone, even in a crowded room. I feel unheard, even if I am screaming loudly.

I guess I am just searching for something and not sure what.

Does anyone else feel beige?

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QueenieSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:06 pm AEDT

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She has been looking at me funny for days @outlander. I think I am annoying her too much as she slept in a different room last night because I was talking too much lol.

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outlanderSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:20 pm AEDT

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Oh dear @Queenie

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QueenieSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:29 pm AEDT

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Right! I MUST be totally invisible.

I try to be a good person and good community guide, but heck I must be failing at that too. Thank you @outlander. I throw a fistful of glitter in your direction. You try to help someone and it hurts my ego (is that even right, perhaps more it hurts my psyche) when you are completely ignored.

Bah humbug! I'm not sad, just really really angry right now! One peeved monarch!

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outlanderSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:33 pm AEDT

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@Queenie im not sure what you mean? Are u mad at me?

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QueenieSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:35 pm AEDT

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No definitely not you my friend! Please don't think that. I threw glitter in your direction because I consider you an ace person. Definitely not mad at you @outlander.

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outlanderSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:37 pm AEDT

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Ok i thought id done something to you too!

You are a great community guide! What are you talking about. What has upset you? Tell me where and ill take a look

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outlanderSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:38 pm AEDT

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@Queenie above msg

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QueenieSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:40 pm AEDT

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Don't worry about it @outlander. It's been happening for a while. I'm a ghost forumite or is that a non-person? I post in both forums and often I'm ignored.

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outlanderSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:46 pm AEDT

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Your not a ghost at all @Queenie !!
I reapond to you all the time that must make invisible too hey.
Your not invisible. Your respected here. Please dont let this dampen your mood. I can feel you dropping.

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QueenieSenior Contributor29 Nov 2017, 10:51 pm AEDT

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Nah, I'm not dropping @outlander (but thanks for looking out for me). You're definitely not a ghost. You're not on the fringes like me. I live in the Out Lands, far from society hahaha!

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