RE: Darkness surrounds me

Hi @Bubbles3,

Hope you're ok.

Will email you shortly.

Hang in there mate.

JoeTheLion

Hi @Bubbles3,

Hi @Bubbles3,

Hope you're ok.

Will email you shortly.

Hang in there mate.

JoeTheLion

@Bubbles3

Thank you @Sans911 for posting your update here, but for you, I would have come to your page!

I am so glad that things are looking up at home with your house mate. Must have been a difficult conversation to have. But you do not need the pressure of paying for everything whilst looking after your own well being. And of course you helped her with her illness, because that is you Sans, such a caring soul.

I am also pleased to hear that your foster sister is helping you out. Hopefully this is one less thing to worry about in the short term.

This head nurse and case manager sound lovely to me. Hopefully you can keep in contact with this head nurse, since you seemed to have formed a very trusting and respectful realtionship with him. It woul be good if it is someone you can call if you feel the need for that extra support.

I am also glad to hear you have NOT slipped back. I know you were super worried about that. There are still going to be hard days of course, we all have them, but hopefully the good days outweigh those super hard days. The retreat this weekend sounds good and sailing, WOW, never tried that before, that should be fun.

I find it scary too, not knowing the future. Some of my future will be decided tomorrow. I have to see a work cover psychiatrist who will decide if my work cover goes ahead or ceases. Which I am dreading because I don't know what to expect and I am afraid I will close down like I normally do, tell him everything is fine like I normally do, and than have my work cover claim cancelled.

But the future is scary Sans, however I believe you have got a bright future ahead of you. So what ever you do to help yourself stay alive, I'll be right there cheering you on and helping you from afar as much as I can. Because you do matter and you are important Sans

Thanks for your help today

@Sans911, I could say the same for you also. Sometimes I really hate this anonymous stuff. Think we could sit down in person and talk for ages, but this will have to do!!

Hubby ended up working late so I ended up telling them myself. I just sat them down and just said straight out that my Aunty J died this morning. Told them that sometimes we know before hand that they are going to die, like their Grandpa (my Dad) and sometimes they die and it comes as a shock like it did today.

I know they are kids but I think they just need to hear to outright instead of skimming the edges. I was also honest with them when my father passed away but that being said, they went and said goodbye to him in hospital 4 days before he passed.

So Mr 9 was ok, Miss 12 was upset. I told them that we will do the same as we did for Grandpa, they can write her a letter and we will put it in the coffin with her so she has it with her forever. They seemed to go to sleep ok tonight, but it might not have hit them yet however. Will just see how they go the next few days.

Lol, I will try to be honest, I know I need to be. It's just hard to open up to someone face to face that you don't know. It took me about 4 sessions before I was comfortable enough to tell my psych about the CSA and I'm meant to do it tomorrow, yikes!