RE: Darkness surrounds me

@outlanderno rush hun. Going to log off for a bit anyway, getting overwhelmed

i cant quite remember all your strategies so apologies if you already do/tried them...

• hold an ice cube in your hand or try putting it on the back of your neck
• write on yourself with a felt tip marker or draw. you can make it graphic however instead of damaging you can wash it off and you wont have those feelings of guilt associated with the other form.
• snapping a rubber band on your wrist or your ankle
• dig your fingernails into a limb without breaking the skin
• throw foam balls, rolled up socks, or something similar at the wall as hard as you can or against the ground
• write letters to people who have hurt you/ are angry at or hate. tell them what they did to you, and why you hate/ angry at them. throw them away, burn them or place them in water and watch them crumble.
• organise a holiday. it can be fake but you have unlimted amounts of money so plan your trip, where you want to go, what to visit etc.
• organise a party. again can be fake but design an ideal party for yourself, or pick an age and go with that.
• play with your pet
• use an app and become an interior designer
• use an app and dress up your pet
• watch your favourite movie/tv show/ you tube clips
• play solitaire
• do puzzles on any kind including crosswords, findawords, or the puzzle pieces

theres more but will start with these in a post and will continue onto another @Former-Member

• plan your perfect spa day
• read your favourite book
• write a song, poem or even start your own book
• listen to music
• make a scrapbook with pictures
• paint your nails
• write in your journal or diary about your day
• arts- drawing, painting, knitting, crochet, sew.....
• get ideas for your next art project or challange yourself to draw small pictures with a random generator
• uh theres a few adultry things in there that ill leave out!
• write a story about the craziest, funniest or most embarrassing thing that happened to you
• call a helpline or chat online
• house cleaning
• make a lsit of your favourite quotes
• rearrange your book, cd dvd shelves etc.

I’m keeping an eye out for you too @Former-Member .... here in the background. Feeling for you Hon ....

💜💕

@outlanderthank you hun, I am definitely going to use some of these tonight.

@Sans911last night was touch and go on whether or not I was here today. I was able to stop myself (I don't want to say how). I guess I am scared that if I get to that stage tonight that I won't be able to stop. One of the reasons why I was trying to get into contact with my psych.

But I spoke to HC before and we have made up a specific plan for tonight with two back up plans so feeling a bit safer now.

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope for being here too.

Two more nights

Some of those suggestions you could open new threads for under Social Spaces @Former-Member .... like planning your perfect holiday, no cost limit .... or a Day Spa experience..... for instance. Then others could join in, if you want.

And it doesn’t matter what time of night you’re on them either.

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope I like that idea. If I am on late at night one night I could start a thread about that. Gee you seem to have good ideas all the time.

I’m an old-er lady @Former-Member .... lol .... who raised five baby dragons kids ..... I had to learn to be creative to try to stay a few jumps ahead of them ..... ❣️

Is anyone around to talk to?