RE: Darkness surrounds me

Just found your post @Bunniekins.Just got carers approved for my mother @Bunniekins,I can't get a job,but I hesitated for two months due to many reasons,but financially living on Newstart was becoming my SC mission as I have hit rock bottom.My mother has deteriorated in health over winter.
I should've been on it since last year as my mother is constant.
My mother was sick this week, yesterday had to take her to the doctor then hospital for a test.I just crave to be able to live my life @Bunniekins.When you go somewhere and you constantly thinking of someone else's needs,it does affect you.Plus her dementia and deterioration affects me mentally.I put groceries in the back of my SUV on Monday,she was standing beside me,then I walked off to take trolley to the trolley bag and she followed to the front of my car.She then asked where the car is.Yesterday at the doctor's I was outside in the car.I seen her come out of her appointment and look straight at me.I waited and five minutes later she rang my mobile to tell me she was ready.When she came out she still walked past the car.Im scared shitless that this is my life.

I'm scared shitless @Nell23whats going to happen to me.This week I gave up on having a life of my own

I think it's easier to give up @Former-Member then to have hope in my case.thanks

@Former-Member night sweetheart. I hope there is a better life for you eventually.