RE: Darkness surrounds me

Morning @Sans911 @Bunniekins

@Faith-and-Hopealready been and back again, early appointment

@Former-Member How did it go this morning NellBell? and morning.

A little light in your darkness @Former-Member .... 🌿🌈

@Bunniekinsit went sh*t. Another fkn med change but have to wean myself of some to go on these new ones. Am so over everything. Have to go back and see him again next Tuesday. So another fkn waiting game, feel like a test tube dummy, just waiting to see what works.

Told him it is all getting worse. On the way out he said I will see you next Tuesday, and I replied if I am still here you might. Just annoyed at the world in general atm.

@Former-Member Fair enough I would be annoyed too. I am pretty annoyed too today it must be in the air. Don't worry NellBell the psychiatrist will get the meds right it wil be okay in the end it always is. Fine for me to say I know but just hang in there. xx

@Bunniekinssorry to hear you are annoyed. Did you want to talk about it?

@Former-Member Oh NellBell I don't know what to do about my son ... there is just nothing for him. He is not stupid but he has so many deficets that having a normal (in quotes) life will be impossible. He will forever be frustrated and unhappy and has and will keep dragging my small family through the myre with him ... it is just sad there is not more out there for people with his problems.

I get so annoyed with the lack of opportunites for him and the NDIS is a joke. The whole system is a joke. A bitter, nasty joke.

OK RANT TIME

The pdoc has no clue what my life is like and what I go through every day. I have had enough of these fkn med changes. How much longer do I have to wait until something is going to help. Then he says to me "they should have helped by now" like there is something wrong with me. Now he wants me to do a group therapy thing for 10 weeks twice a week. I can't even talk to him, how am I meant to sit in a group with other people and talk. My anxiety is high enough and can't even control it on ok days let alone do something like that. I am so frustrated and upset atm. I come out of these appointments feeling like crap and even more upset with urges through the roof. Maybe I need to make my apps at night, then my whole day it not ruined. Today is NOT going to be a good day.

RANT OVER

@BunniekinsI am sorry to hear that. No it is not fair that there are not more opportunities out there. He has a right to a life just like any other person out there. It must be outting a lot of pressure on you and your family.

I think the whole Mental Health System needs a overhaul and the stigma associated with MH needs to be seriously looked at. I can feel your frustration and it is sad and unfair greenpea. Hearing you hun

@Former-Member Group therapy hahahahaha (sarcastic laugh).... he must be joking. Not funny at all ....