RE: Darkness surrounds me

@outlanderyea would rather not be on meds at all, but I think I probably need them atm.

Its good that they are sleeping there. Hopefully they can get all their things and give you more space which you so need. Must be nice however having a bedroom to yourself

@outlanderhun that is not selfish, I would rather be alive and not just surviving too!!

Well once they move all their stuff at least you can set up the room how you want it. Make it your safe place, a place where you can retreat to when everything gets too much.

@outlanderyea stick here this morning or on Zoe's thread although it looks like it has moved somewhere else now.

It is distressing however. I have a big issue with control (stems from no control from CSA and work trauma) and need to feel in control at ALL times. When things like that happen and stuck in the middle, I feel like that control has been lost. It makes for a very tricky situation at times

@outlandersounds good sis. Time for me to go have a shower anyway and have some breaky!!

Another fkn med change. Here the same thing. Let’s see how this goes for the next 2 weeks. Ahhhh I know I have to give them time to work but do they not understand that 2 weeks can feel like 2 years when they are not helping.

Have to bloody drive home now 😥😥