RE: Darkness surrounds me

I won't trust anyone again @Phoenix_Rising.Accepted I either make it,or I don't .Won't put myself through that again.thank you💌

I can definitely understand why you wouldn't want to try again with anyone else @Former-Member. It is so so SO hard.

I choose to keep trying because I know that with the right help I can create a life worth living. However, I can absolutely understand why others may choose not to go through the torture of trying to find that right help.

I realise it's me @Phoenix_Rising,not meant to be,and not meant to be happy.I was right when I realised it's my reality early last year,when the mental health nurse stated it's the depression talking.My anger and grief over the loss of my life I can't describe.

@Former-MemberI can understand that you are hesitant to reach out for help again. Hopefully this forum can provide you wil this support.

I feel like this with the bloody GP's I have seen. 😒

@Phoenix_RisingI have been following your journey and hope you find TTT so they can help sort out all your muddles to get that life you deserve

@Former-MemberI have only been on about 6 weeks. Was really struggling before that. Only been diagnosed recently and only been about 4-5 months since trauma happened that brought on my PTSD from childhood.

I am glad that you have found the forum supportive.

@Sans911It is what it is, there was really no point going in the end. My thoughts are still in such a dark place and triggered by what I told the doctor so just trying to stay as safe as possible. Will be an extremely long draing night. But I will reach out for help if I cannot hang on anymore, I owe that much to my kids (and hubby).

@Sans911you are always there for me even if you are not "here". But you need to look after yourself first, because when it comes to you, you are the most important person. Hopefully the respite centre will start feeling "right" soon. Maybe you can have a chat with the head nurse, the one you connected well with last time. And you are always in my thoughts too, but remember you are worth it and you do matter

@Sans911,take care,had a bad day myself with triggers and agitation.look after yourself 😍

@Former-Member,I spent last year in bed,keeping myself "safe",I avoid people afraid of what they will say,I'm alienated from family for several reasons,I only need a trigger and I'm gone into the world of chaos and hopelessness..Had four years or more of counseling.Was on antidepressants for 1-2 yrs,changed my life thinking I would be ok.I wasn't,crumbled and fell to the ground losing what kept me going.Wont touch them again as I can't see a life and giving me false hope is just as cruel.

I have to go to sleep now,I hope you get some sleep @Former-Member🙈

Good night @Former-Member, thanks for keeping me company tonight