RE: Darkness surrounds me

It really is our default setting when we feel so low to not recognise the courage it takes to get through things such as you did yesterday. I can tell you repeatedly how courageous you are but if you dont believe it yourself @Former-Member then it really does not mean anything - but I will continue to tell you - simply because I know how you would be feeling and none of it is at all positive - and none of it is fair OR of your making. Trying to keep it together when you are breaking apart inside is not something that you can describe to anyone and it is so painful that you become numb - that I do get

thanks @Zoe7 i know what you mean. And I am sorry that you do get it, because it is not something you, me or anyone should ever have to go through

No it isn't @Former-Member - I thought you would know what I meant - sometimes it helps to know that you really are not alone and that other people struggle with the same/similar things. The hardest part is feeling alone and knowing other's can empathise with our 'situation' can make that so much easier - I suppose that is all I am saying Nell - I get it and you are not alone

I am going to go for a while again @Former-Member - I'll drop back in later and we can see how Topic Tuesday is going.

Sounds good @Zoe7 take care

@Former-Member I am awake finally can string two words together! How are you going today NellBell?

Here is a picture of my dream comphy chair:

https://www.google.com.au/search?q=comfy+chair&safe=active&rlz=1C1CHBF_en-GBAU734AU734&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjFnoPPl_fWAhXLHpQKHR48BsQQ_AUICigB&biw=1093&bih=530#imgdii=2kSbm421-kA3KM:&imgrc=pR-lNJ16lmEKMM:

That chair looks very comfy @Bunniekins

I am not doing that good. Havent really moved all day

@Former-Member Sweetheart what are we going to do with you aye? How can I cheer you up today ... hmmm

Okay, true story @Former-Member years ago my sister and I were out for a drive and this taxi cut us off. My sister wound down the window and screamed 'FCK O FF!' and gesticulated to him in such a manner that Blind Freddy would know what she meant. I went off at her saying 'OMG! Dont do that!'

We drove off fast around the corner back home and when I parked my car in the under cover car park I noticed him driving past with this evil look on his face obviously looking for us!!!!!

@Bunniekinsyou have some of the best stories, I think maybe growing up my life was not that exciting compared to yours!