Borderline Personality Disorder

I had a similar situation than although not to scare u I lost both my children during our divorce and can only see them once a fortnight at my parents house now. I used to live in the same town and only saw them 6 hours a week no sleep overs. My ex husband is very controlling and is scared of me of what I did to him in the past. But i know in my heart I will never do that to my children. My husband abandoned me thru my marriage always On the computer never gave
Me affection. I slept in a different room for the past 5 years of our marriage and guess what. The kids would always come to me In the morning. I miss that. I have never harmed them. I'm a good mum. I used to be a primary teacher but can't work anymore. My life is cracking and getting worse the more therapy I get. Maybe I'm just trying to find me.

Im 25 years old and have always had bad anxiety/deperssion panic attacks and since I was 16 thrown onto every medication u can think of none worked last week I have had a unofficial diagnoses by a mental health nurse and psychologist
I say unofficial as they can't write it on paper for me I feel so alone I have too ruined any sort of relationship so I stand alone I think about killing myself daily and still don't know why I haven't I feel your pain and your not alone please feel free to swap numbers as the support would be great for us both in finding treatment options

Im 25 and have always had bad anxiety/deperssion panic attacks and since I was 16 thrown onto every medication u can think of none worked last week I have had a unofficial diagnoses by a mental health nurse and psychologist
I say unofficial as they can't write it on paper for me I feel so alone I have too ruined any sort of relationship so I stand alone I think about killing myself daily and still don't know why I haven't I feel your pain and your not alone please feel free to swap numbers as the support would be great for us both in finding treatment options

I'm so sorry you had to experience that ! I know what you mean I actually have suicidal thoughts frequently and a lot of self loathing. Splitting from my partner was the best decision I made . I made the split official and few days ago and he didn't even care. I remember telling him I feel like killing my self and he refused to hug me only because I told howler relationship was dry previously . Imagine that .. what type of partner is that. I feel like it's not really 100% our faults we are like this . It's just that we can not control our emotions properly like we are super super sensitive people that takes everything literally you know ? People who were mean to us don't deserve our apologies such as my partner whom I kept apologising to when in fact he contributed to more 50% of the triggers that made me mad. I've heard stories of women screaming at their partners or throwing stuff and their partners just laugh it off and still love them. I always wonder why my partner took it so differently and kownhere I am dragging my poor son into this mess and trust me he's so innocent and so beautiful . I've tried to click on your profile to find a way to personally message you but I wasn't able to. Please stay strong. If I can do it as a 24 yo single mum with a schizophrenic abusive mum, a newly diagnosed psychotic brother, a disappointed Asian family, a partner who doesn't care for my safety - trust me - you CAN do it too ❤️

Thank you so much for your response ! I have a psychologist but he told me straight up he can't help me 😑 So I'm on the hunt for a new psychologist but like you said I'm not having any luck ! Imagine I've rang playgroups to get rid of the isolation and even they didn't call me back and I rang like 5 times too ! 😕

I just moved to Melbourne I wasn't happy in the country now I'm getting all the flack. Why did u move away from your kids. Well 6 hours a week is bullshit. Now I can have a sleepover with them st my parents house and spend much more quality time with them. My husband still hates me even tho we split four years ago. He will never let things go. I asked if the kids could visit on the school holidays for one night and of course he said no. I basically resided my kids by myself for 6 years without any help fftom him. He would ignore and avoid. Sleep all weekend Now be has them and the kids hate me cos I left my so is autistic he doesn't understand. Because I left then house He think I don't like him. That's his way of thinking. So sad. That's been gojng on for four years. All he ever says that he hates me Cuts
Right to bone. Iceberg had 14 psych admissions since the split. None before due to losing my kids. How ca.n someone be so ctuel because u have a mental illness.

Hi guys just had to flad something here
@Aussiej you cant exchange numbers here. This is an anonymous forum so no personal contact numbers
@NikNik

I feel you girl just keep strong and keep up with the therapy for support. Yes partners can be so damn cruel and its frustrating isn't it but we have to string stoned for ourselves and our safety xx

Thank you so much this post made me cry I just feel so useless,helpless and scared to know that this is more common then I first thought is the reason I'm crying as I thought I was alone I wish there was a way to pm on here to

I know sorry it was a copy n paste thing n didn't realise I left that in it still as I didn't know the rules until I read about them