how to stave off feeling suicidal

want to hurt myself again

would it help to phone lifeline or another helpline tonight @MDT ?

No
They are not gonna give me a gf...
I dont deserve love or happiness

here reading and caring, dont know what to say but here with you @MDT

thanks @Former-Member
rough end to yesterday
have awoken feeling a tiny bit better
just have to focus on some reading today for uni tomorrow
havent felt this pathetic in so long

thought today would be a new day..
instead i wake up feeling exactly like i did going to bed

Hi @MDT
sorry that today is still blah. Im not feelig so good today either. But feeling a bit determined to do a few things. Im also trying to do some study (have to keep up some training to stay registered in my field) and need to get moving on it... though my motivation isnt there. Will take dog for a walk first and see if the exercise gives me some energy. I sometimes try to reward myself for achieving some goals - watch movie or something.. or just tell myself I will only do ... when i finish ... sometimes it helps.
Good luck with your reading, i hope there is something interesting in it!

@Former-Member
I don't know what to do

Hi @MDT
Sorry - i was out for a few hours and have just gtten my kids settled.
Its hard when things are swamping you.. i turned up the music quite loud on the way to help drown out my own thinking, it did help a bit.
How are you doing now?

@Former-Member
I am a bit better today.
Just trying to focus on what I have to do.