how to stave off feeling suicidal

The buildings are nice yeh.. go back to 1850s

The park nearby is nice too

I just have too much depression and anxiety inside me atm..

i hate it....

thinking about making an ultimatum

Hi @MDT,

Just wanted to check in on how you are feeling? Did you want to share a bit more about the ultimatum you mentioned here?

Lauz

Hi @Former-Member

My ultimatum is that if i am still in the same place i am now next year then im ending it

Thank you for sharing that with us @MDT

The place you are in currently sounds difficult and just being aware of that and speaking about it is very courageous. As much as it pains us, we just can't know the future so it can be helpful to focus on the present.

I really liked what @LooneyToones mentioned about focusing on the beautiful spring change that is around us and generally noticing nature - that can be very grounding. I do love to smell some fresh flowers (if my allergies don't play up on me! )

It is important though, as @Bunniekins and @Former-Member mentioned, that if your thoughts do shift that you seek help in the crisis support lines like Suicide Call Back Service.

@MDT I am so sorry you feel this way. I dont feel the same way you do although I feel similar. I feel like I have wasted my life I have random thoughts that the world would be better if I was not here My kids are the only thing that keep me going sometimes. But then I do keep going and things get better even if only for a bit and it is just enough to give me hope better things are out there