Really wobbly

Hearing you @frog ..... and sitting with you, listening if you want to talk about it .... and it doesn’t matter if you leave out details or whatever .... if you need to talk ....

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Good morning, @frog. I just read of your terrible news. Sending hugs and gentle feelings to you. Take it easy on yourself at work, if you make it. So sorry these things have landed in your life.

Thanks @outlander @Former-Member @Mazarita @Faith-and-Hope your kind words mean more than you will know my friends. I shoudn't have gone to work. Lasted about 15 minutes. Sitting with me is the go. I know you are there even if I'm not

Back again too, @frog, if you need an ear. Otherwise, just sitting with you as you process the news.

right here with you too @frog

Good morning, @frog, wondering how you are going. Thinking of you.

Hello @outlander @Mazarita @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Shaz51 I hope you are travelling ok. I am really really wobbly, even for me. I had to make a difficult decision and I am travelling to see my mother tonight. It will be a very quick visit because my kids are at war and the younger one really isn't able to take care of himself yet.

My sister has forgone her own surgery and flown to Australia from France to see my mum. I am feeling guilty about this because I have delayed and dithered on my decision.

My brother (who is a doctor) said that my mother is not aware of what's going on but my sister said she could squeeze her hand, nod and shake her head and did know who was there.

I am sort of in a daze, and frightened. I feel like I can't do this, and I can't not do it. So much is arising for me from the past. My brain doesn't want to work, doesn't want to make decisions, doesn't want to know.

This morning they are going to take the breathing tube out and see if she can breathe on her own. If not it goes back in but they said this can't go on indefinately.

Thank you all for being here. You are so much more supportive than my family. Please stay with me.

Also @Sahara I see that you are going through a really difficult struggle of this kind yourself. I am thinking of you. I thought I should stay on my wobbly thread and not crash yours. From what I saw you are doing so well - making decisions is so hard under the circumstances. Take care.