MDTSenior Contributor
sick of this sh*t
wasting my time is something i am really good at
i hate myself
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sick of this sh*t
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TABSenior Contributor
Re: sick of this sh*t
Er its prob nothing like the Be all and End all if don't go to a networking meeting re never get anywhere if you don't. Yes , if don't try maybe.. yes the worlds harder these days yes your parents grandparents continue to reap rewards from past fairer times. It is what it has become. Re 'australia'..(becomes America etc)
Anyway try to concentrate on
Positives. Sure lots people cant get into uni etc, and way worse off than you. Maybe they have a reason to be upset. Just sayin' .,
Persistence, humility even will get you a long way. And if you didn't go to the right private school, getting add on quals as teacher for eg may be an option. Might be hard to ser the Big Picture now, but you have lots more chances to go yet re career. Ffs lol once people went to uni to learn.. just sayin @MDT
Anyway try to concentrate on
Positives. Sure lots people cant get into uni etc, and way worse off than you. Maybe they have a reason to be upset. Just sayin' .,
Persistence, humility even will get you a long way. And if you didn't go to the right private school, getting add on quals as teacher for eg may be an option. Might be hard to ser the Big Picture now, but you have lots more chances to go yet re career. Ffs lol once people went to uni to learn.. just sayin @MDT
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soulSenior Contributor
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It's really difficult to see the positives at times. Depression and anxiety have a habit of clouding our vision. Do you take meds @MDT?
Have you thought about doing some volunteering? Helping others can lift the focus off our own situation, gives us a purpose.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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yeah i take meds but they are useless..
all they do is make me drowsy.. so i take them before bed to help me sleep because i cant sleep otherwise..
i signed up for a volunteering thing at the airport but i dont care for it.. too expensive to get to the airport and its all international students that do it..
now i have to go and face the world again today and i really hate evetything.. today is only a short day but itll be long.. i simply dont care.
There is no point in trying. All people do is shut me down.
I'll amount to nothing. Thats what i am.
all they do is make me drowsy.. so i take them before bed to help me sleep because i cant sleep otherwise..
i signed up for a volunteering thing at the airport but i dont care for it.. too expensive to get to the airport and its all international students that do it..
now i have to go and face the world again today and i really hate evetything.. today is only a short day but itll be long.. i simply dont care.
There is no point in trying. All people do is shut me down.
I'll amount to nothing. Thats what i am.
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soulSenior Contributor
Re: sick of this sh*t
Hey @MDT - sounds like you're not doing too well. Can you think of a couple of things that made you feel better in the past? Perhaps watching a particular kind of film or tv series or video clip? Listening to music? Going somewhere that made you feel calm?
I am sensing a lot of doom and gloom and if you can find something, no matter how small that can lift your mood, it is at least a start.
Depression and anxiety can make us forget that there was a time when we felt happy. Trying to recapture that and getting our head to think differently might be helpful.
Have you looked into mindfulness or meditation? Even if you have in the past and it hasn't worked for you, it might be time to give it another shot.
With your meds, are you on AD? Perhaps a review of what you are taking could be a way forward too.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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@soul
No im not.
Everything is just flat and dead.
Im at uni now and have an hour or so to spare. I might go and write some more of my book that im doing, just to sidetrack myself. I really see no point to anything i do. I just keep endinf up where i started.
Im moody, upset, depressed and annoyed. No one wants to be with people like that.
Mindfulness is a waste for me. Tried it before and all it does is get me annoyed.
I take a mood stabiliser. Dont think its having any effect. Makes me drowsy so i can sleep at least. I sleep horribly so i take it to keep me asleep for longer periods. There's always noise in the house. Or outside. So i never get to sleep in. On the rare occasion that there is peace and quiet i always end up waking up really early. Its gotten to a point where i dont care.
Like everything else in my life.
No one cares about me
No im not.
Everything is just flat and dead.
Im at uni now and have an hour or so to spare. I might go and write some more of my book that im doing, just to sidetrack myself. I really see no point to anything i do. I just keep endinf up where i started.
Im moody, upset, depressed and annoyed. No one wants to be with people like that.
Mindfulness is a waste for me. Tried it before and all it does is get me annoyed.
I take a mood stabiliser. Dont think its having any effect. Makes me drowsy so i can sleep at least. I sleep horribly so i take it to keep me asleep for longer periods. There's always noise in the house. Or outside. So i never get to sleep in. On the rare occasion that there is peace and quiet i always end up waking up really early. Its gotten to a point where i dont care.
Like everything else in my life.
No one cares about me
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soulSenior Contributor
Re: sick of this sh*t
The book you are writing @MDT - what is it about? I'd like to know more about it. How long ago did you start it? Do you hope to get it published one day?
I havent heard anything from you that used to make you happy. Surely there was something. Do try to remember even if you are feeling that nothing is going right for you at the moment.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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I was never happy. Just deluded
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soulSenior Contributor
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I don't believe that for a second @MDT. You are feeling that way now because you are currently in a deep dark hole and can't see a way out. There must have been times when you experienced some joy and even though it doesn't seem like it now, you will again.
All things must pass. No one stays happy forever, no one stays sad forever. So the way you are feeling now - it will get better.
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MDTSenior Contributor
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@soul
All those times i was "happy" i was deluded. Thought i was doing well and i wasnt. I'm in shitcity now.
It has to change for the good. But it wont. Ill be stuck like this forever
All those times i was "happy" i was deluded. Thought i was doing well and i wasnt. I'm in shitcity now.
It has to change for the good. But it wont. Ill be stuck like this forever
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soulSenior Contributor
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@MDT - what made you get out of bed this morning and go to uni?
