sick of this sh*t

@MDT,you are doing better than you think,you don't give yourself enough credit and I think you know you are nearly at the finish line and sound like you know you are going to make it.In fact, you are probably one of the most successful ones here,you kept your life going and you aren't defeated.You sound like you have great strengths eg:helping students.If you are a loser,hate to think what I am!Lol or cry.

today i feel really depressed... like really relly depressed... why does everyone around me get to be so happy?

Hi @MDT ......

"Like" = "I hear you"

Sending you a cyber hug cos feeling that way really sucks, and I don't really know what to tell you, other than that I care .....

I'm not happy @MDT
I hate everything today.
What do you hate today?

💕 ..... @Former-Member

thanks @soul 🙂

hey everyone
thought i would post a bit of an update of where i am currently and all..
so wednesday was okay. I had my birthday and i was actually pretty happy with how it panned out. Had dinner with family which was nice.
Last couple of days have been interesting/not bad.
This morning i was sitting out on the balcony in the sun drinking coffee and thinking about where i am at in my life currently. What I have in terms of skills, personality and such.
I realise i have it good in life but that its not enough to eliminate my depression and anxiety. I've also gotta stop thinking "i have mental illness therefore cant do xyz". I dont think this is a good attitude to adopt, a far better one would be "yes i have mental illness but lets see how far i can get in my life despite how bad it gets"
Easier said than done.
Given that this next week is mid semester break i have a full week to catch up on reading, start assignments and look for money making opportunities and internship/graduate offers. I really do not wanna waste it (because its also the last mid sem break i will ever have ever) so i might hesd into uni to do that stuff to avoid distraction at home..
Today I am just gonna take it easy. Clean my room as well. Needs a vacuum.
I am really anxious about next year and money and life in general... But i guess one nedds to count their blessings. I've opened up a treasure chest of opportunities by going to uni.. a uni i never thought i would get into.
A friend of mine had her grad ceremony yesterday and she told me that i was her first real friend at uni. I was touched by that. A friend i never woulda met had i not taken a chance in life and gone to uni.
All this is great to remember but it wont eliminate my mental illness.
I guess i am slowly getting there. One must define success for themselves.. thanks for being here
@outlander @Sans911 @soul @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Former-Member

@MDT it's good to hear this is a little bit of a better week for you. I'm glad you spent time with family. And what a lovely thing for your friend to say to you. Yes, even I have used the 'I have MI (I can't do....) card. I understand how difficult it must be to be uncertain about your future. You want everything to turn out good, because after all the hard work at university, why wouldn't you? And you already ARE successful. You don't need to define it. It's not necessarily getting the best job having a lot of money or being at the top of the corporate tree. You're successful right now, because despite your mental illness, you get every day and keep going with your studies. Your successful because you have hopes for a brighter future, and your successful because you keep trying.