outlanderSenior Contributor
not coping
im not coping
i cant handle all of these things
besides my mental health deteriorating so dramatically, and my physicall health floating up the creek
and now within the past few hours
my great grandmother now is in a nursing home and they dont know how long she has left and to make thigns worse i think i have to put my beleoved horse down.
we just had vets out and spend the last 4 hours trying to save my horse. its been 2 hours and went back to check on her and its not looking good.
not good at all 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞 😞
i dont know what to do or how to feel, im a complete mess 😞
Nikki. 
