not coping

I have absolutely no issues with you being here @Former-Member and I'm sure @outlander would say the same. Green Tea 🍵 ugh, sorry not my thing. I might make a Milo soon.

Of course you can @Former-Member i dont mind at all

No tea for me though, struggling to get my stomach under control again.

My SI is pretty high tonight @Sans911 im tired but not overly sleepy. Just sick of myself, i try to do right by my body but i still end up with bad news. Its all faulty.

Its just nice to be around youse 💛

I hear you lil Sis. I wish I had words enough to comfort you, tell you everything will be alright, and that life will be OK. But we both know that's false, and won't make you feel any better.

What I will tell you that nothing you have done is your fault, not one bit. It just happened to you. And it totally sucks. And you've never given up. You've always looked for solutions or answers. You've sought help when you could have sat in your hands and said 'fk it'.

So don't give up now. Take a rest when you need. But tomorrow is another day to try again.

If you search long enough the answer might just be found.

Gentle hugs my angel 😇 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖

Thanks sis @Sans911 @Former-Member 💜

Ive been in bed since 8oclock. Just want everything over with one way or another.
The constant pain esp my stomach pains which radiates elsewhere and bad news (i won't go into todays appt yet) is getting to much and really distressing. Friday next week might give answers but who knows with me.
I dont want to be negative anymore im sorry

Yes, even though it's been a couple of years since my last attempt @Former-Member, my SI is still very much there too. It comes on days when things get hard or complicated. Sometimes it seems easier to say to myself, I don't want to fight to survive any more. I just want to check out.

But you're right, being here is a help. There is strength in numbers. I liken it sometimes to an image of forum members pulling on a rope, pulling yet another one of us back from the edge. We have to pull so hard against those forces, but love is what wins in the end. And faith in a tomorrow that's not yet here. And once that person is back from the edge, we surround them with our love. It sustains us for a little longer.

Yes, green tea 🍵 is very much an acquired taste. My mother drinks it because she is lactose intolerant.

Hugs and hugs 💕 💕 💕 💕 💕

@Former-Member

@outlander

You're not being negative @outlander but I hear myself saying the same things. It's alright hun. Vent away.