not coping

The psych appt was both helpful and gave me answers to why I’m feeling the way I am but it also explains why it’s more dangerous as well.
And having scans done for migraines which is showing a couple of things and will need to see a neurologist as well for brain and spine as well to get a better idea if that’s what’s causing the migraines or what is happening

sorry i fell asleep @Snowie

yes it was helpful speaking to her she is the only one so far that actually explains what shes talking about and hasnt paniced about my self harm. we fo have a couple of plans in place though if things do get to pear shaped instead of her sending me to the public health system but obviously if its safety she has to still do that.
i a still pretty tired and i keep getting really fuzzy in the brain visual issues but its unexplained including what the scanned showed. while pops out i plan to go for a walk before i meet him at my workplace for the rest of the day and night. feels like such a waste of a day being there sometimes its so boring. but at least i have a couple of things i need to be doing today like creating a wellness plan and trying to keep pushing forward with nursing homes etc

whats your day looking like

hello @hanami

Hey @outlander !

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How are you @hanami

I'm pretty good @outlander , how about you?

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pretty tired @hanami but powering through as usual
what are you up to today? ive just started work so here i am now for the rest of the day/night


@Snowie i guess thats what happens when you work a double shift overnight then have to care for people in the day so for me its like working 4 shifts in a row before i sleep but i got to tired around 7 last night and just had to go to bed even if i was only dozing.

hes on a couple of waitlists but it still might take a year to find somewhere permanent and i still have more steps to take as well in the meantime but at least he is waitlisted.
he is also going to respite for 2 weeks at the end of the year while im away for medical procedures so itll be abit of a taster visit i guess. im sorting that out as well as they have paper work and everything that needs to be done before he goes as well. its coming up so fast. i need to try and work more lol i need to get my supports in place post treatment but i cant seem to save fast enough even though in my brain i have a $ figure that if i reach that every fortnight ill be fine but other bills seem to keep popping up or expenses that i need to pay for. hopefully i can get a couple of shorter shifts at work occassionally to keep adding to my hours

sorry last night wasnt good for you. thats always hard and tend to feel it into the next day too. so many emotions we have!