not coping

She is a counsellor the one im seeing or was seeing @Sans911 i thought i would give it ago since she had advertised a special interest in anxiety and guiding people through life choices and events but she already said that to me. So now i dont really know. She was really an offload person or work abit on a particular thing, like last time i asked for some help with panic attacks and basically seemed to put me straight into the to hard basket and i could feel an attitude change.

Even if i wanted a break, the things happening here dont allow for it and i dont want to abandon things. Not now anyway when theres some significant things happening.

Maybe im just jealous. I dont really know but a sick dog or a slight injury doesnt seem to need a huge amount more attention then an injury thats made mw give up my life and do jobs i hate doing just to pay for even more medical bills. Not one person reacted when i was injured and yet when more minor things happen or the dogs involved theirs all these massive write ups all on social media etc and then i get msgs to check on others and be told make sure that person or this person's ok.

Im stuck in hell mentally physically socially and whatever else there is and i dont know how to fix it. I dont know who else to turn to now 🤷‍♀️ ive tried but it looks like i have to go back to being seen and not heard and most dont want me seen either it seems.

Thanks @moxi i havent met you yet so its nice to meet you. Ive learnt not to tell my story only the more relevant parts to whichever issue is ie panic attacks because of this or that reason. It gets really tiring to be met with the same responses all the time

Unfortunately ive lost access to a few online counselling services that worked ok for me when i really needed someone to talk to. Some services only take people to a certain age but since a few months ago i lost those as i outgrew in age. @Codex1

Wrapping my lil Sis up in my arms, tenderly but all encompassing. Holding you very close so you can rest on me @outlander ❣️❣️❣️

Thanks sis @Sans911 💜

Shall I make a cup of tea for us both @outlander and I'll sit here with you for a while?

Yes please @Sans911

Thank you @Sans911 💜