Coming to terms with reality

hello @eudemonism

nice to hear from you

having to battle side effects of medication is alarming as well as draining.

I am not surprised in the least that you don't get things done that you want to

This happens to me, I get sidetracked with my anxiety or depression nothing gets done then

I take so long to get things done on some days when I am not well

I just look at it differently if it doesn't get done and it is not life threatening so be it

I have been feeling better and slowly getting out

you might have very high expectations about housework which does not need to be done daily. Having animals does also create more work though

I have 2 cats who malt fur heavily

LIfe would not be the same without animals..great that you have your dog. I am more than sure that he gives you great comfort

losing your uncle recently would have a huge impact on you

you could light a candle for him if that would help

there are a few different threads on here about grief and loss if you wanted to try and connect with others as well

Try not to be too hard on yourself when the day does not pan out as planned

you are having to deal with a lot...feel for eudemonism

I like the idea of putting your own thoughts and words to music. Does that help you?

well time for sleep hopefully

write back when you can ..no pressure..no judgements..just friendship

be nice to yourself is a new mission for you

hello @eudemonism

I do agree with the offer of an illusion of heaven....it is exactly that an illusion

being aware of that and choosing to not measure yourself against such ridiculous ideals is a healthy way..in my mind...of living one's life

living and functioning in society does not have to be a negative experience... if we can keep on believing in ourselves...that we are strong...we can find contentment in different ways for each of us who are different to each other

all sounds a bit hippyesh I know...it is this thought that keeps me going

I believe that when I am true to myself and am able to have moments of wonder no matter how small, that life is worthwhile....

I think that you show great insight @eudemonism when you write that

What hurts most is too think i am the only one dealing with such a predicament. But when i realize i am not. I take it a little easier on myself.

I spent four hours gardening yesterday, weeding actually..resulting in stiffness ...felt good though

I find connecting with nature, playing in the dirt so to speak which is what gardening stems from for me, helps me feel calmer, more at peace with myself...similar to being on sand at the beach

@Adek how are you today? would you like to share some of your interests?

@Adek

oh my goodness!!

when do you have time to breathe

I need some of your energy please.

my traumas and depression have drained just about all of my energy and slowed me down so much.

I have to push myself so hard to get out and go for a walk yet I love walking so much. Took about 4 hours today eventually went as it started to rain. just put a jacket on and hood up. glad that I went because rain stopped. came home and gardened again for about 2 hours.

You certainly have done some interesting things in your life and I hope very much that you are proud of yourself. Your interests are so unselfish and yes you do have a wealth of knowledge.

You must tell me more about your rabbit rearing if you feel up to it. I had a pet rabbit at the age of about 13 and he was stolen. I was devastated.

I think that you are an ambassador for what can be achieved when retiring due to ill health

seriously you have woken me up...I would love to talk more with you

@eudemonism there is hope for change....read how interesting adek is

speak soon to both of you I hope