Coming to terms with reality

hello @eudemonism

thank you for such an honest, open response.

You are an astute, intelligent purpose struggling against extremely difficult symptoms further exacerbated by side effects from strong medication.

Are you actually under the guidance of a psychiatrist to monitor your medication and it's effects, progress, setbacks, anything?

I am happy to encourage you and support your endeavours to get back into everday routines, healthy diet, exercise, hygiene etc.

I will respond to you when I can. I cannot promise that I will be online every day however I will do my best to read your posts and respond as often as I can.

Please understand that I am here to listen because you are a worthwhile human being, who if trying your hardest deserves someone to listen, care and respond.

I want to also let you know that I have an an older son who was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia late last year, after being detained and later put on a community treatment order. He is in total denial, fled the state and we do not know his exact whereabouts. He has in the last couple of months allowed skype messaging, text messaging and an occasional mobile phone call. He has had some dreadful experiences in his mind and believes that his life is in danger, even mine. I support him by listening and trying to reassure him. This is so little but as much as he allows. I am hoping in time that he will let me know where he is so that I can visit him.

So if I can help someone who wants me to, by listening and talking I will.

@eudemonism

just wanted to stop by quickly

I have read your response

i have to jump in the shower. i have my pschiatrist appointment this morning.

i shall write back when I have the time to read again what you have expressed and then respond. I do not want to upset you in any way.

i think that the world has already done a very good job of doing that.

i am glad that you are on here though.

i dont know if you have done this before. as shallow as it sounds, writing on here is a step in another direction. you are actually conversing with real people.

speak soon

take care

Hello @eudemonism

you mentioned audio and visual feelings about the people in the system.

are they the people who have given you the depot injection?

are you feeling very medicated at the moment because you have recently had your injection?

I am not a psychiatrist, medically trained or even a counsellor.

I am a human being though with feelings of my own as are you.

I can understand you feeling angry about the medication and directing some of that anger towards those people.

do you listen to classical music through headphones? I read earlier that you like classical music. you also have an interest in more holistic type of therapy.

meditation, mindfulness all can work when we can get started with them. sometimes the hardest part if stopping our mind long enough to be able to start something.

for me my saving grace is getting outside. I ground myself by focussing on nature, weather and the interactions happening.

I have a fabulous cd by Tim Wheater (formerly of the Eurythmics for 3 years)

He is one of the world's best flute players, alongside James Galway.

The cd is called awakenings. I play it at night to s end me off to sleep. For me it is the best music for meditation I have ever listened to. I do love the flute though.

wearing headphones and listening to music is a great way of distracting our troubling thoughts and inner voices, programmed thinking.

walking helps me also. I get very agitated when I cant get out and walk for days with extreme weather patterns.

you mentioned the beach. that is such a beautiful environment to watch and hear those waves crashing in. to wade through the waves. does your dog go in the sea and then drench you? fetch a ball or a stick?

hope that the medication settles and the day eases for you.

tell me about your music and your dog. I would love to hear more.

take care

hello @Adek @eudemonism

the all time question "why are we here"

monty python "the meaning of life" covered it very well

My philosophy about life after spending zillions of time on questioning my line of thinking, is that the answer is different for everyone.

I strongly believe that the language we use is man made. words make up a part of the language.

man did not have the answer before language it seems or was not intelligent enough to ask the question

therefore even though we seek the answer in words, it has not yet been written are my thoughts

why is this so? because there is no evidence again my thoughts

there are many different philosphies, belief systems etc and within those gigantic number of systems there are many proposals offered attempting to answer the almighty question

perhaps if we change the question we might discover within ourselves a satisfactory solution

I am deep