Talking about not talking

I'm feeling stressed/sad/tired and I hate that the first "solution" my mind turns to is self harm and suicide. Get with the program, brain. I just realised I have the 10th anniversary of my first suicide plan coming up soon. Delightful. 😒

Hi @TheVorticon

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@TheVorticon I'm just dropping by to let you know I've heard you. Thoughts are thoughts. They are neither good or bad, they just...are.

Anniversaries are superly duperly tough. I tend to have a lot of ceremony around difficult anniversaries. I find that immersing myself in the grief and having a lot of ceremony helps me process the loss much better than trying to distract from it or avoid it. However, this is just me and I know everybody would navigate those difficult days differently.

I hope you can do something fun to brighten your day today @TheVorticon.

Just had to pop in to say that today's thing was so much fun. 😄

I wish I could share more about what it was, but I'm pretty open on here and already feel like if anyone from my real life stumbled across the forums they'd probably figure out that I am me. So because I want to talk about this thing in real life, I won't talk too much about it here right now (maybe awhile down the track).

But man it was fun. I kinda feel bad cause I may have taken more than my fair share of turns at stuff but I tried to share whenever I realised I'd been monopolising things. I hope I get to do it again sometime, and maybe be more mindful of letting other people have a go first.

hey @TheVorticon

wonderful to hear some good news

wallow in it

if you had more than you should have well tut tut......you are glowing that is the main thing

great stuff

I'm just sick of my b.s. every time something's even slightly stressful.

• Have to have an awkward conversation - how about not being alive instead?
• Mess something up - can't mess anything else up if I'm not alive to do it.
• Have a tight deadline - get it? Deadline?

Just either stop or get it over with. Either way, grow a pair.

hey there @TheVorticon

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@TheVorticon wrote:

I'm just sick of my b.s. every time something's even slightly stressful.

• Have to have an awkward conversation -
• Mess something up - can't mess anything else up if I'm not alive to do it.
• Have a tight deadline - get it? Deadline?

Just either stop or get it over with. Either way, grow a pair.

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I don't alway use the quote thingy ...easier at the minute....head pretty foggy....messy...blech

sick of b.s. hmmm yes over it I agree

avoiding awkward conversation...how about not being alive instead? hmm...I am actually over my programmed thinking rubbish regurgitating the same old same old...."dont want to be around any more"

Mess something up - can't mess anything else up if I'm not alive to do it......hmmmm. yes same answer as above I am sick of my go to "dont want to be around any more"

Have a tight deadline - get it? Deadline? hmmm....is this out of my control? hmmm yes same answer as above I am sick of my go to "dont want to be around any more"

conclusion from my point of view re my points of my life....I am sick of my programmed thinking blah blah blah

I am fed up with being me more so because of the way I react than the actual problems that I have now

does that make sense @TheVorticon?

I am not questioning your responses...your feelings...I totally respect them they are yours

your post has made me question mine though

I think that I am angry because I am back being irritable...angry...fed up...heading down the road to depression...

so I am talking about not talking about my way of thinking about my thinking