Coming clean

Hi @Former-Member, I spoke with my Mrs and we had a massive fight. In the heat of the moment she told me to move out (which half an hour later she retracted) so it wasn't very helpful. It seems the only help I've got is hospital, but my normal psychiatrist is overseas at the moment so unsure if I'll even getting admitted privately. It's all a hot mess at the moment.

@utopia even though the respite houses are operated by the same umbrella organisation, they apparently get their funding from different bodies. Before it was Commonwealth funding and that is relatively easy to get. Now I'm in a different catchment area because I've moved, funding is from the Department of Communities at a state level. Almost impossible to get and it wasn't helped by the fact I have to speak on the phone on behalf of my carer as she doesn't like speaking on the phone. They believe I don't qualify as having a diagnosed psychiatric disabiity even if I am on the disability support pension because of one. I don't get it. When I moved here to the city I was promised all this support but now I have none at all!

Getting really close to the extent of my limits.

No need to apologise @utopia about the water and the voices situation. My post wasn't that clear.

Exactly @utopia, I feel like I am headed downwards but not yet sick enough for hospital. I've been researching like mad and there is a recovery house available, but you cannot go there if you're in an acute phase of illness (which I am). Also the organisation has very cliquey, the participants of the program don't like newcomers and don't make them feel very welcome. Therefore I am reluctant to go there.

My Mrs has sent an email to the carer's counsellor (gaol warden) to see if she can help. They were going to put me into respite a while ago against my will, but rethought against it. We shall see how they go if I volunteer to go. Maybe she has resources not normally available to us?

I came up with a new colour yesterday as part of the traffic light system - black. I just feel like I'm overwhelmed by black at the moment. I just hope we can get this sorted, before a lapse into a depression episode. I seem to have those every 6 months.

@utopia you know, that's not a bad idea actually! She normally only sees inpatients as she goes only on the ward, but we can see how we go. The worst she can say is she can't help us, right?

I pulled money out of my savings account to pay for respite at the respite house, but seeing as they are near impossible to obtain for services (the Department of Communities refers you and pays the worker there overnight, however you pay for the food you eat at a rate of $20 per day). I'll just hold onto it.

I GOT RESPITE!!

I go next week (Monday to Friday). Sorry I haven't posted about it until just now. We've momentarily lost internet at home while they sort out our ADSL to NBN installation and connection. Found out yesterday about the bed being available out of catchment. The respite house is pulling a lot of strings to get in and funding is easier to get because it is through Commonwealth funding (which is relatively easy to apply for).