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Something’s not right

-Enigma-

-Enigma-

I have given up now - no one can say it was not without a fight. But then no one on heaven and earth would give a damn anyway. I gave from the heart and it was a joy to help others. I felt such peace with that. I never did it for anything in return ever, I did it because I truly cared and felt so much genuine compassion towards others. I was promised dreams and peace would come true even though I never asked. It felt so good to know I made someone's lives a bit better.

Why is it that people like me are then faced with so much heartache, injustice, trauma and adversity that seeks to do everything in its power to destroy that good, to take the little good and peace I had, to utterly destroy me. Why?

I had always been there when possible others times of need - now that I truly need someone I have been all but abandoned by those I knew and those in the spirit. I realise now everything was a lie and feel utterless helpless and lost. I have lost everything and don't see the point in being here. I hope I don't wake up to another day of despair.

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A closer pic

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Wow that is lovely @Former-Member

Hello @Maggie, @Faith-and-Hope, @Owlunar, @Appleblossom

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@Former-Member@She is stunning. I hope you are proud of yourself. I love the new name and pic. You are striding ahead and well done to you. I have spent the morning in the garden. It's raining ever so gently and I have mud everywhere, I'm having a coffee break and a think about what goes in next. Hope your day is going well.

@Shaz51 hi, hope you are doing ok.

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hello @Maggie , how are you today

feeling a bit better then yesterday

was feeling torn between looking after mr shaz and my mum , my mum still lives in her house and i am doing more and more inbetween the 2 places

as for my week of having leg cramps, feeling sick in the stomach, aches and pains , I got an email today to fill out a Kidney Disease survey form -- wow I got tired from reading and answering questions and seeing what is going to happen in the future

but one day at a time here xxx

soory for the vent my friend , I hope you are ok

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@Shaz51 Vent away, you have plenty to vent about by the sound of things. Does anyone look after @Shaz51? I'm glad you feel a bit better than yesterday. 💜

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Thank you @Maggie

Can't tell you how good it is to hear from you. I was wondering how you were going. I have been thinking about you a lot. Did the visitor settle?

I am please you love the new username and pic - more me and less triggering. A nice new start

Could you please send some of that lovely rain over here lol, we are so dry. Everything is yellow and the garden is struggling. Yours would be having a real nutritious boost - nothing better for it then rain water. Did you manage to do some more cross stitching? Would love to see a pic when you have the time.

I am also going to insert now another picture of my framed angel as it's a fuller view. I love the way the framers cut the mat the way I asked (it's not standard) and over the moon with the job they did at such a reasonable cost. Most framers charge three times as much here. I will also insert in a few days a pic of where I am up to with my Dimensions "Sweetheart Gate" (half way done) I

I will continue to post the occasional post and pictures, writing etc up here - but will change the name of the thread to Enigma. If I can't I will just start another under that name. So happy to hear from you my friend. I love you 🌹

@Shaz51 my lovely - what has been happening with your mum and husband? Sounds like you have your plate full with your kidney health issues on top. So Sorry I wasn' t aware of what you were going through. Myself and @Maggie and others are here for you always. We love you. Please feel free to vent here now or anytime you need to - we are hear to talk. I will tag you occasionally to see how you are going if you do not mind. We care about you 💕xx

@Shaz51 - You are wise to live day to day - don't read to much into what medical reports/diagnosis say the future will bring. We can beat the odds. My husband was told he had 18 mths to live approx nineteen years ago. He still is being treated for cancer but is still here living life. Don't overdo it @Shaz51 - look after you too.

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@Maggie - fuller photo of framed Angel cross stitch 😇xx

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Sorry all for some of the blank posts. My iPad is really playing up and not posting properly my end. My apologises. I think it is time to get a new iPad 😅

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@Former-Member She is just beautiful. You are right about the framing, I've never seen an insert like that one. A pic of how far I am atm, but don't seem interested in it. It will return.

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