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Something’s not right

-Enigma-

-Enigma-

I have given up now - no one can say it was not without a fight. But then no one on heaven and earth would give a damn anyway. I gave from the heart and it was a joy to help others. I felt such peace with that. I never did it for anything in return ever, I did it because I truly cared and felt so much genuine compassion towards others. I was promised dreams and peace would come true even though I never asked. It felt so good to know I made someone's lives a bit better.

Why is it that people like me are then faced with so much heartache, injustice, trauma and adversity that seeks to do everything in its power to destroy that good, to take the little good and peace I had, to utterly destroy me. Why?

I had always been there when possible others times of need - now that I truly need someone I have been all but abandoned by those I knew and those in the spirit. I realise now everything was a lie and feel utterless helpless and lost. I have lost everything and don't see the point in being here. I hope I don't wake up to another day of despair.

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I do not know you. What I do know is that you obviously have value. Not just the inherent value that every human being no matter how base has. However, major value due to your hard work to help others. I want you to know that I CARE what happens to you. If you suffer I want you to know that some measure of that suffering is shared by all who love justice. I wept for you just now. I hope and pray you hold fast and live on. Things change. Situations get better. May God bless and keep you.

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Oh @Former-Member - I can't tell you what your post meant to me and how I needed to read this right now. Thank you for being there. I reallly appreciated it x

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Goodmorning @Former-Member
Sending some extra hugs and love to you. Also hoping your appt goes well for you today too
💘❤💕💛💖💜💗💝💙💟💞💚❣💙💓

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Hello and good morning @outlander - am just about to hop in the shower and go. Will let you know how I get on. Hope your day is going okay - I think I read somewhere you were arising early. Hope it's turning out to be a good one 😄💜❤️💜❤️💜🌹

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That was yesterday ( see above msg) @Former-Member todays abit more chilled wirh just a few things to do
Yes please do let me know how you go, ive been worried about you too
Hugs to help get through the day 💜💛💙💚

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Morning @Former-Member hoping all is ok and your gp appt went well. Thinking of you ❤

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Anytime, always remember your value. You seem like a beautiful human being, a person of dignity, worthy of respect and honor. I will always argue for your life, it is worth saving, I promise you.

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Hi @Former-Member

I am so grateful for your presence here. You fill my heart with joy. You sound very intuitive and wise which uplifts me - thank you for caring. Thank you for being you. I am here for you too. Sending much love ❤️

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@Former-MemberThe feeling is mutual. I feel great knowing that I helped you in any way. I accept your friendship and hope that we will be great friends on here!

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Hello my sweet @outlander. Your presence makes me happy too - your posts enrich my life. Truly. I don't think you realise your worth and how you touch others......very special. Kindness and selflessness is a powerful healer - not only for the recipient but also to the person who offers it.

You have a big wonderful future ahead - you just have to believe it - believe in you. And it will be a good one, vastly improved from your present situation. Someone will see your worth and swoop you up....if you allow it.

My GP believes my thyroid disorder, Hashimotto, is playing up. He believes I am not well as suspected. So we are following up with blood tests and I will know more in a fortnight. We had a lovely chat, we always laugh and he tells myself and husband about his new home, his love life and his problems. We have that type of relationship. He even said we can pop in and visit him at home anytime. I would never impose, but the offer made us feel good. I love my doctor. I love lots of people. I am a big mushy teddy bear under a strong exterior if truth be known. Probably why I hurt so much when a few others through it back in my face and trample on my soul. But I get back up again smiling.

I just returned home from my volunteer work - I am always happy when I go there and connect with others. I can get depressed if I stay at home....I have to work and keep busy. My daughter is not so good - one day at a time. I can only keep hoping she wakes up and moves away from those who are not good for her....that o e day she will recognise her true worth - she needs saving. But I can't do it. It's the parent and child thing - she is stubborn. It will have to be a peer - a miracle in the works needs to occur.

How has your day been? Always thinking of you and hoping your spirits are still up. You do have a better life in front of you if you keep following the goodness of your heart and not let anyone derail you xx 😘

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