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outlanderSenior Contributor
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KokoContributor
that sounds so positive. Well done. I don't know you but I'm super proud of you.
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KokoContributor
@outlander. That sounds so positive. Well done. I don't know you but I'm super proud of you.
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OK so despite having a bug or whatever it was this morning I have been quite busy
so this morning I fed all 4 horses and waited for the farrier to get their hooves trimed. So that took over an hour to do. I cleaned out the small ponies yard as well so thats cleaned.
So that took until 1ish and then come home and had lunch- my favourite dry buscuits and lemonade lol. Then at 2 I went and fed my new horse and didnt leave there until 5oclock. So ive just had a small real meal for dinner and I suppose ill find out how that goes within the next half hour or so.
Tomorrow is going to be busy and very stressful for me.
At 9oclock I have to leave to get to my SA counsellor. Ive given her one more shot but if I walk out of there and decide not to go abck I dont think theres much loss really. Im going to write out my story tonight which isnt going to be that great for me and give it to her tomorrow and hopefully she can actually help me.
When on the phone today she was rude to me too 😞 she sent me a msg saying- I need to know if your going to come to the appointment tomorrow outlander or do I have to cancel it'
I said to her 'ive been flat out so havent checked my msgs yet which at that point I didnt have time to reply, sorry for the late resopnse can I please keep the appointment'
her reply was yes outlander see you tomorrow
and tonight ive realised if I dont change it appintment to earlier ill be late to my next appointment so I msged her and asked (she doesnt finish till 7pm so I knew she was still working at that point) I asked If I could do an earlier time
her reponse was ' the earliest I can do is 930 no earlier otherwise keep the appointment for 10 or cancel it'
I asked to change it to 930 and said thank you
I somehow get the feeling shes going to have a loveley attitude towards me tomorrow. I dont have a good feeling about it and how its going to go tomorrow.
So then after my 930-1030 appointment tomorrow I have to go to my horse and feed her and then leave by 1 to get to my drs appointment.
Im super nervous for my gp appointment tomorrow. Its the first time ive seen her since ive been released from hospital and I cant control how nervous I am. I dont know what to say or how to act or anything. I dont know what shes going to ask or act or respond to anything and it makes me nervous.
Then ill be studying as ive just enrolled into another short course.
And I have also been offered 2 jobs today.
1 is a weekley 3 hour paddock cleaning and also help with the new aggistment owners part time horse care. So thats the same as the holiday care I have but im also working for the aggistment property owner as well who will give me specific horses and their weekly regimes etc.
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Hi @utopia@Former-Member@Koko@Queenieand everyone else here
yes the job offering is great but it seems one of the jobs have backed out or will only be from time to time now. Bad luck I suppose but what can you do hey
so I went to the psychologists counsellor this morning and again she doesnt make me feel very comfortable and it was only a half an hour session. She doesnt help me when I ask for help or am needing direction she sits there just as awkward as I am.
Like today we talked about my hospital admission, and how life has changed but when I was asking for help she didnt know what to say and just said things like- stick up for yourself, make sure your nutrition is good. Thtas not helping me, thats telling me things I already know. So I think im best off giving her up and sticking with the one counsellor.
I went and seen my horse for a little bit and then left there.
I not long after I left the horses went to my gp appointment.
We talked about a lot of things and I feel I can talk to her. We talked about the hospital stay , whats changed now, how am I going in general, medications and a psych assessment. She thinks I wont need the mental health team to give me an assessment but my new psych could instead of running through so many different people. I need to have stable relationships with the health practitioners I have now.
I will only have to see her once a week unless I or she thinks I need to increase it again but at the moment im out of that major danger zone so thats good.
I finally made an arrangement to see my psychiatrist and I hope that doesnt bring back the paranoia again.
Ive been abit flustered this afternoon and I was given new tablets that I not long taken. They cost me 40$ to get them! I hope they bloody work casue all up just two of my tablets cost me $50 plus ill need repeats on my other tablets soon too.
And then later on this evening, I went out -first time in a million years since I finally decided to actually brush and straighten and wear my hair out- usually im a tom boy and a messy bun works fine for me- I got hit on by two guys lol.
But now my anxiety is back but these new tablets are suppose to kick in within the next hour. I just hope they work!
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