Life after hospital

hello everyone

i jsut got out of a psych assessment done by my local community MH team. they confirmed severe Gad, complex ptsd, and depression. as well as health anxiety AND BPD.

So I believe you can just round all that up to complex ptsd. All the other things are just symptoms of it. Please don't get caught up in diagnostic hoo ha. We sure not our diagnoses. They are just labels. They are not who we are.

Hey @outlander,

Those post admission blues are too real. Glad you found somebody to take care of your horse. My pup lived with my parents when I went in but she would've been my first concern. If you don't mind me asking were you in a private or public hospital? They can make all the difference. Public hospitals suck, the waiting times suck, the rotating roster of specialists suck. All of that.

I've generally found the PRN the greatest repreive of anything. Being a former drug addict it's the most sought after thing (a complex topic) but the anxiety is so intimately linked with the PRN it's hard to disassociate them. I hate that label of being an involuntary patient too. It's so frustrating being in there against your will (sorry I think I answered my own question before) but from the sounds of it you came out on top.

I really hope you can try and move on with recovery and being safe from this point onwards. Thinking of you and empathising with your situation completely. Lots of love and well wishes,

Pat.

that last long post you wrote was very good! @Koko

my only real expectation when getting out of hospital was not to have all the responsibilities piled back on me, be better able to deal with some of the things going on now that ive taken a break and for my family to stop calling me an attention seeker.

were these ecpectations abit high do you think maybe?

hi @patrickT thank you for your response.

i only had limited time to get my horse organised otherwise no one wouldve known i was going in except my mother and her bf. and where my new horse is i dont want them going there. thats what i call my safe place. i dont ahve to worry about them there or anything.

i went into a public hospital, i didnt have waiting times except the 9 hours in psych room waitng for a bed.

i was admitted by my gp while i was in the drs surgery. they called the ambulance and i got taken from there. the first hospital i went to didnt have any beds so got pateint transported to another hospital. the unit that i went in to was really great. not what i was expecting at all. but that was the short stay non vilent peopl ward. so the max nights is usually 3 but the friday i went in didnt count becasue i didnt see the psych team and the weekend doesn count so i ended spending 5 days there.

i ahve a prn but it doesnt work for me. so im trying to work out another option atm. i can take it but it either doesnt work or it takes all day to kick in andmay as well of not taken it at all.

yeah the label of involuntary- when i was coperating the whole bloody time annoyed me abit but i guess it was for safety reasons and at that point i actually used it to my advantage. as much as i didnt want to be there to start with, half of my porblem wa that everytime i was on the phone to my mother or her bf they were pretty much trying to drag me back out so me being able to say' im an involuntary patient what dont you get that i wont be home until at least monday dont you understand' didnt stop them pestering me about it or calling me an attention seeker and that i dont need to eb there yadda yadda. but it gave me that to use instead or arguing with them all the time.

ive just realsied i havent done any of the homework ive been given by my psychologist yet and theres 4 tasks to do im worried about my pschologist appointment tomorrow and whats shes going to say about the BPD.

another thing im worried about is the fact that i have BPD

im not really sure what to keep doing, im abit lost at the moment and not really sure whats right or wrong 😞