Sucide attempt

@Evie1Anyone who loves cats is a kind and good person in my books

And I know you are kind, because I remember you saved your friend from taking her life, right? That is an amazing, caring and courageous thing to do.

You say you don't let things get to you or break you, but hun, you are letting whatever happened get to you and eat you alive. You are far from destroyed. I know you want to live, because you have said so many times before.

I know you are brave, because you are still here fighting to live. Wanting to live. You are safe now; what happened before cannot be undone, but you are safe. Let people take care of you, trust them that they will help you find a way back to feeling good again. I understand that right now you are in a world of pain, and everything might seem hopeless, lost, destroyed and nothing will ever be good again. But don't you want to see if it can be ok? Suicide is permanent. You are gone, never to return. No chance to find love, to give life and love to your babies when they enter the world, no chance to be a grandmother, no chance to travel and explore amazing cities and countries, no chance to show the world that behind that pain and hurt, is a beautiful, smart, funny, caring girl.

I have been suicidal for 6months or more now. I have had so many attempts, been in hospital so many times, used these forums, telephone support services, my community mental health so, so many times, but on my better days (like today, but 2 days ago was really awful) I can see that maybe, just maybe there is some worth in living. It's not easy living with this pain, but you aren't alone even though your experiences are different to mine.

Are you still in hospital today? I hope you are, and getting some help and some rest. Don't let your thoughts destroy you Evie. Thoughts are just thoughts. Hold on just a bit longer to life ok? You might be surprised that it will turn out ok. I have a long road ahead of me too, many days I am not safe from my thoughts, but I know there are good people who can help me to stay alive. You can have that too if you just let people help you before you do anything. I think I remember you saying in your safety plan that the forums were part of it, right? So please, come and talk to people here, or even just type @Moderator, and someone will come to talk to you.

(((((((((Sending big hugs to you ))))))))

Hi @Evie1

It's Arie here. I can see that things have been diffiuclt for you recently. When you have felt like this in the past what is it that you have found helps to see you through?